I got home and I went straight to bed cause it was late and just wanted to forget that he existed why did I have to run into both Van Dijk's today and in the both in the same place I completely regret coming here I forgot about that life I had with that beautiful mess and how we both made each other nearly kill ourselves if go is trying to bring us together he isn't making it any easier on us why can't we just stay out of each other lives if we can't be together why can't the world keep us apart like it does when we are together.
I mean no one said we couldn't be together actually I did but still it's not like we can't be together I just don't want to lose him or want to know if he ever does go if he is happy when I'm 7 thousand miles away then ill do that because then I know he won't do anything stupid to kill himself because of me ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Coraline sleep you need to sleep tomorrow is more standing up and trying on things so SLEEP.
I woke up being very tired from the little sleep I got and I knew I was going to have a shit day because not only was ruel stuck on my stupid little brain but I was tired.
I got ready and decided I was going to go on a walk along the beach just to wake me up more and get some fresh air and maybe have a change of thought.
CORALINE'S OUTFIT:
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I got to the beach after going to the cafe to get a coffee and started to walk it was I little more lively than the other day when I came here but I didn't mind that.
"i didn't know green was your colour" some one said walking next to me and i looked up in shock and confusion and of course the devil himself appears " well i guess we are both a mystery arent we?" i said and started to walk faster " coraline chill alright I'm not here to justify myself or even say sorry cause that's not enough for the shit that i put you all i want is to have you back in my life even if we hate each other ok even though you don't need this I'm still going to say it" he said and i was panicking inside please font say those three word please "I'm sorry" he said and i exhale roughly as i wasn't aware of the breath i had been holding in " ok cool I'm going to go" i said not wanting to be around him anymore "hey i noticed you brought your car i didn't I'm going to the same place your going to i also do that for my music you knowso i was wondering if you could take me I'm already late for my fitting so yea it wouldn't change if you said no" he said and i just gave up on trying to be mean i was so sick of the life i was living so might as well at least enjoy some of it " fine lets go" i said and sorta smiled walking up the steps and then in the the car park and got in my car waiting for ruel to get in " i stillunderstand why your mum ( mom) see's you in me we both have the same fashion sense so don't say that green is my color when you know its brown i was just spicing it up today" i said smiling at him and then driving.
we got there we were both straight into our fitting not being able to see each other all day which I didn't mind but I kinda did miss him even though I probably shouldn't but I did.
