The man with the child in his eyes MJ

Part 16

AUTHOR'S NOTE: DON'T HATE ME, IT'S STRONGER THAN ME, I'M INTO ROCK        \m/

IT SUITS WELL, BUT TO FIND OUT, LISTEN TO THE END.

Very current Maneskin, just found yesterday.....

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1978

With my health back, I was living again, I was breathing again, finally! I could resume studying with profit. I laughed out loud even for the most insignificant things, but I didn't care, I had to make up for the time lost in that immense pain.

Even at school my classmates noticed the difference. Michael studied me from afar to understand if he could approach me or not. I was a bit of a bitch, I had to make him pay at least a little. And then I didn't even know if he was free, maybe in the meantime he had been with some other girl.

During lunch breaks at school, he sometimes waved at me as if to say hello, but he didn't come near, he was afraid ... or he had a girlfriend. Fuck but why these paranoia? I had to forcefully remind myself that I had just gotten over a painful problem and that I was to enjoy my newfound health, other than Michael!

After few days finally he came closer.

Michael:" Hi Leonie. I would like to tell you that.....do you know that soon I will not be coming to school anymore?"

Leonie:" Really? Why?"

Michael:" I'll finish my senior year at home, with a private tutor"

Leonie:" Too many commitments?"

Michael:" Yea"

Leonie:" You are overloaded with responsibility, you are too young, it is unfair."

Michael:" It could be............... but I want to say that........I miss you" he said looking down. I widened my eyes.

Leonie:" So?"

Michael:" Do you still hate me?"

Leonie:" Of course."

Michael:" There must be something I can do for you."

Leonie:" Yes, work hard to be forgiven."

Michael:" Do you think you can be my girlfriend again?"

Leonie:" who knows? Perhaps."

Michael:" Will you make me pay for it for a long time?"

Leonie:" In your opinion?"

Michael:" A mess happened, but it's not all my fault."

Leonie:" If you had believed me, if you had given me more consideration, it would not have happened."

Michael:" You are very important to me, I will do what I can."

Leonie:" you have been dropped from school because you have too many commitments, let alone if you will find time for me."

I was already getting depressed, he would not have had time for me, what an agony ....... Then a flash in my mind: Cambodia ..... why? The war, the war in Cambodia, the news talked about it, it had been invaded by Vietnam, those poor lives ..... and I was depressed because Michael might not have had time for me. Compared to those poor people I was living in heaven, so what was I complaining about? I began to feel ashamed of myself and from there I laid the foundation for what would be my trend in the future. Later, in fact, I would have started to visit Cambodia regularly, and I would have started an adoption procedure for three little siblings who were in very bad conditions.