The man with the child in his eyes MJ

Part 14

After shut the door behind me, I reached the bathroom, still with the gun in my hand...............

.......I felt something rolling down my inner legs, I pulled up my long skirt and watched all that blood run down my legs. I looked back and saw big drops of blood on the floor, so I ran to the bidet, which mum and dad had installed in all our bathrooms in the house in California, (since in Switzerland, we live close to Italy and there everyone has a bidet in the bathroom, to wash their feet or private parts, without taking a shower or bath, every time).

I sat the bidet trying washing blood, but it wasn't only blood, along with the blood was another unspecified substance, which I was unable to recognize.

I started to wash my intimate part but the water has aggravated my pains. It looked like my vulva had been burned with iron. When after endless minutes I cleaned up, I did my best to wipe the blood off the floor, then took my long skirt to my room. I lay down on the bed hoping to sleep, but that pain was too much. I stayed there in a kind of trance, then after a few hours mom and the others came home. They called my name, but I didn't answer, then mom knocked and opened my door.

Mom:" Leonie, love, why you're in bed? You doesn't look well."

Leonie:" yes, I have my period, I feel bad without energy, I have also stained my skirt with blood." I lied.

Mom: "But Leonie, honey, you just had your last period a week ago, don't you remember? We really need to go to a gynecologist."

Lena's sister:" mum leave her alone, it's too early for her to have completely regular periods, for me it was the same, at 16 they weren't so regular."

Mom:" it could be."

Leonie:" I don't think I'll go to school tomorrow, I feel bad, so you won't wake me up tomorrow morning".

Mum:" but you never suffered of pain menstruation, so you will go to school"

Leonie:" yes but this time is it."

Next day again I didn't want to go to school. To do what? See Michael and wanted to kill him or to show all my shame to everyone?

Again the following day, I refused to go to school, so after a lot of talks, mum get upset:" this is the last day you stay home, tomorrow Travis bring you there by force."

The next day, on the way to school, I asked Travis not to accompany me inside "but that's exactly what I'll do, I promised your mom"

I walked in with Travis, then walked into the classroom alone, keeping my eyes low so as not to meet anyone's gaze, especially Michael's. During the break I refused to leave the classroom, but next day my friends forced me to go outside " what's wrong with you Leonie?"

I stood there with them trying to pretend I was okay, despite the interminable pain between my legs. Donna told me, "Hey Leonie, Michael is on his way" and they quickly moved to a spot on the grass where their attention was caught. So I was alone with Michael, that was trying to look at me and talk to me, as I stared at him with disgust and pure hate and fire in my eyes. He was so nervous. After a few tries, he looked me in the eyes, then suddenly looked down and said: " I'm really sorry, I'm so ashamed, I just didn't want to."

Leonie: " Instead you wanted it, you raped me."

Michael: "No, it wasn't my intention, I was shocked by the whole situation. Ask me anything, I'll do it ......... "

No response from me.

Michael: " Please say something Leonie. I'll do whatever you want, please ask me."

Leonie: "Yes, there's one thing I want you to do: stay away from me for the rest of your life, don't try to talk to me anymore, don't try to meet me anymore, JUST stay miles away from me !!!"