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Tortured Soul

I'm sorry it's so short but it's all I've got for now .

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Hope's POV

We all had Emma's class today but I came early , It gave me at least 5 minutes to think . These last few months have been rocky but good . I've been more depressed than usual lately but the good part is Josie Saltzman . The girl I'm in love with . She has made my life a little easier . This week we were given an assignment , the theme was country , so I've been practicing with the band on the details of my music . My song is going to be about my love for Josie but it's also me telling her the truth of what I really do whenever I don't go to a class . Though I'm always here for music . Lately all I've been feeling is love and pain .

Just then everyone walks into the classroom , Josie looking as beautiful as ever , with Lizzie right next to her telling her about some shopping trip . They sit on each side next to me . Emma walks in front of the class . "Let's get straight to it then , I hope you've all done your assignments . Who wants to go first ?"

I let everyone else go before me , I was nervous and depressed , of course I wanted to go last . Mg sang about his love for Lizzie , it was about damn time those two got together . Kaleb sang about losing control sometimes and Landon of course , sang about me and I hated it . He kept dancing and singing around me and in my face , Josie looked a bit sad and everyone else just looked annoyed . They all knew I didn't like Landon at all , especially Lizzie . "So Hope , what'd you think ?" he looked at me expectantly , like if I'd ever like him back "I think you should get out of my face before I snap your neck" he gulped and frowned , sitting back down . Everyone else just snickered , I can tell that made Josie happier . "Okay that's enough , no need to be so harsh Hope" Rafael said angrily "Raf shut up or I'll let my wolf eat you for lunch and dinner" I was going through enough , I didn't need this today . I just needed Josie . "Hope , I believe it's your turn" Emma has nerve , I'll give her that .

I get up and the band already knows what to do , I grabbed my guitar and looked right at Josie as I stood nervously in front of Josie , the Super Squad and Emma . "This is for you Jo" I said taking a deep breath .

Baby doll keeps me up at night
I fell in love with your soft brown eyes
I toss and turn most every night
Insomnia is hard enough to fight

Whiskey taste is on my breath
Part of me is scared to death
What if I told you the truth
But I chase you down with not any proof

One more sip for a tortured soul
You're diggin' my heart in a deeper hole
And a thousand thoughts goin' through my mind
Cigarettes keep it occupied

With the past couple months , my insomnia has been a bitch , I rarely even get four hours of sleep but ever since I fell in love with Josie , I've been sleeping less . I'm lucky if I get two hours of sleep because all I can think about is her . Mostly everything I do , I do for her . I have yet to tell Josie that I've been drinking every chance I get and cigarettes quiet the thoughts my insomnia brings . By the look on Josie's face I can tell she's surprised and flustered . I mean I did just tell her I'm in love with her and that I was technically two different types of addicts , so that's understandable .

Damn baby doll's got so much light
But damn baby doll's got so much fight
You're cold sometimes with a lot of bite
Just one smile keeps me satisfied

One more sip for a tortured soul
You're diggin' my heart in a deeper hole
And a thousand thoughts goin' through my mind
Cigarettes keep it occupied

Josie was innocent and kind and loving and that's what I loved about her . I also loved that she was not afraid to show a different side of he when people either took advantage of her kindness or hurt her family . I couldn't help but fall more in love with her . I loved how she acted cold when she was angry but then she'd smile at me and I'd melt . My heart would beat faster and I'd have no choice but to smile back .

When I clear the smoke
I only want you more
When all those things won't make me numb
I'll give you all my time and all my love

One more sip for a tortured soul
You're diggin' my heart in a deeper hold
And a thousand thoughts goin' through my mind
Cigarettes keeps it occupied

There was a time when I had to quit smoking and drinking for two months because I didn't want Josie to know the truth . I didn't want to see pity and disappointment coming from those beautiful soft brown eyes .

When I clear the smoke
I only want you more
When all those things won't make me numb
I'll give you all my time and all my love

There was also a time when my methods had stopped working , so I focused all my time and love on Josie , that's when I fell in love with her .

Baby doll keeps me up at night
I fell in love with your soft brown eyes

When I backed up from standing in front of Josie to put down my guitar , I realized everyone had a smile on their face , Emma looked a little concerned for my well being but smiled no less . Except for Landon and Rafael , it's like they all knew I was in love with Josie . Speaking of , I look at her after putting down my guitar , she was just staring at me , not saying anything . I was a little nervous under the gaze .

"Jo ?" she snapped out of her trance and got up , walking over to me , I gulped and held my breath . She stared into my eyes as she placed her hand on my cheeks and I leaned into her touch . "Are you okay ? I know what I said was a lot to pro-" she kissed me , causing us to close ours eyes , more importantly causing me to exhale softly . I pull her closer as she gave my lips a few pecks before pulling away slightly . "Will you be my girlfriend ?" she asked as I smiled at her lovingly "Yes" I replied . She kissed me one last time but this time it was deeper and rougher , it almost made my knees give out but she pulled away before they could . "We'll talk about your bad habits later , okay ?" she says , I'm just glad she's not gonna ignore what I had told her . "Okay but I'm really sorry Josie" I was really disappointed in myself and she could tell . She rest her forehead against mine . "It's alright , I'll help you , I promise . I love you Hope Mikaelson" I knew she was telling the truth , I have always been able to tell when Josie was lying and right now she wasn't . "Thank you , I love you too Jo"