TW: can be triggering? Like, kinda dark..
Saw crushed flowers on the way.
Tried so hard not to step on any but ended up crushing one too.
Saw a dead ant floating in water.
A dead crow stuck on tree braches, it's wings almost torn off.
A dead mouse on the footpath near a tree, its features not recognisable except the fur.
Social battery drains out pretty easily nowadays but schedule keeps on getting hectic by the day.
Too many homeworks and submissions assigned with too short deadlines.
Presence expected at two places on one time.
People always asking for things like I keep them ready or I would even have them, and the time to give.
Others worrying about me worries me more.
Is my presence not as good as it used to be? or it never was and is now worse?
I've gotten worse at subsiding my anxiety attacks.
I don't like how it feels.
The feeling of not being able to inhale when there is plenty of oxygen around you, all while being overwhelmed with your negative emotions, the worst ones of them.
Everyone is so harsh, so mean, it hurts my head and then I have to try to stop my tears, exposure is too dangerous.
They promise kindness to others but never to me, probably never will.
Insults directed at others feel so personal to me, it's uncomfortable always living on edge.
Hearing others sigh makes me feel guilty and humiliated for some unknown reason.
Am left to fend after myself through it all, even if I feel like giving up on me, I know I cannot, not yet.
When will I do the things I like, with complete presence of mind and satisfaction? I hope I'm not too late if I ever do get the time.
I hope everything that takes my time is worth me not getting my time.
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Ssup
Don't worry about me after reading this lol, I'm good!
Was gonna put some intrusive thots but let's not go too dark..
I'm the (procastinating) burnout kid, tag yourself :>
Also besties I would love to see an analysis on this poem like we did in school just because. 🥺
Wait is it even a poem? 😃
YOU ARE READING
Thoughts of a teenager
RandomDear reader, this is kinda like my diary but with messages here and there so get ready to be weirded out ;) Also, I write only when I feel like so there's no uniformity here ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
