Monday morning
Not having university was fucking worth it because he made me paralysed. When he had finished fucking me 8 fucking times I couldn't walk, couldn't get out of the bed.
I was sweaty and stank of cum. He physically had to pick me up and place me in the shower. And he still had to hold onto me then.
So when I went home on the Sunday I stayed in my bed, only getting up to answer the door for my takeaway or having a shower.
And I've come on my period so this is fun.
Cramps absolutely slaughtering my stomach and uterus, I wobbled as I stood on my legs. Finding some joggers and kais shirt I decided to go in university to see him.
Carefully placing a heat pack on the outside of my joggers I threw the top on making sure it covered the pack.
Grabbing my phone and e-cigarette I left my dorm.
Walking down the countless steps was painful as I had to stop in every 4th step.
Leaving the building the smell of fresh air attacked my nose. Grimacing I looked at my car then looked away.
I'll have to walk, I don't even have my keys.
Scoffing internally I began to long ass treck to university.
The building coming into view I smiled as I saw kai walking in through the doors with quite a rush.
Becoming concerned on his actions I followed in after him.
Letting the automatic doors slide shut I watched as he put his hands through his hair before looking up to the ceiling.
What the fuck is wrong with him?
Speeding up I attempted to catch up to him, a swarm of students left classrooms as the bell rang.
Attempting to look over the heads of everyone trying to find my 6ft 1 boyfriend.
Spotting his panicked face I bathed through most of the students as they walked on laughing and joking.
Still keeping an eye on kais hair I hit a hard chest.
"Hazel?" The voice spoke I froze. Looking up Jake was in my view.
Forcing a smile I waved and barged past him.
Brilliant I've lost him again.
Checking the corridor no one goes down I saw him facing a wall, arms crossed and head bowed down.
Quietly walking towards him I stopped.
You've got to be fucking kidding me.
There she was.
Ebony fucking Michelle.
Moving my feet closer I saw her lips on his. Mouth open my keys fell to the floor in shock.
Kai whipped around.
"H-Hazel?" He stammered, tears falling out of my eyes I bent down to get my keys before running.
Bolting out of the doors I heard kais footsteps close behind me.
No. No. No I need to get home.
Turning many corners kais voice still rung in the streets.
"Hazel!! Please!" he screamed as I stopped outside my car. Turning to face him his face fell at my appearance.
"Ashes" I said loud enough for him to hear before digging my secret car keys from under a plant pot getting in my car, turning it on and driving of.
Kais figure stood there on the path as he watched me leave.
I was broken.
That's it.
I'm breaking it of with him. Blocking his number. And un-enrolling from university.
I'm such a fucking idiot.
I'm so fucking stupid
Of course a relationship wouldn't work.
And I cannot believe I said ashes.
The safe word I came up with many months ago.
That's why he didn't chase after me.
Because as soon as I say my safe word, he has to stop.
It's the rule.....
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I'm SORRY!!
