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20. Made of Love 1

"Okay, she doesn't have a fever. Could it be something she ate?" I could hear Chaeryeong's muffled voice, she was under the covers wanting that dizziness and nausea to pass as soon as possible.

"She's been like this for almost three days, Seulgi, it's not possible! If it was something in the food, we'd both be sick too!"

"What if"

"No, far from it, of course not!" Karina denied it even before Chaeryeong completed, my attention redoubled when I got out from under the covers, now getting in doubt before Chaeryeong's opinion.

"What if what, Chaeryeong?"

"Nothing, Yej-"

"Chaeryeong" I looked at Karina, she's already irritating me with her barrier "What if what?"

The woman scratched the back of her head, looking at me and then at Karina who just shook her head. I was startled when she snapped her fingers with a small smile.

"Taeyeon! Taeyeon must know! Wait here!"

I went back to lie down and hide between the big covers, three days. Only four days to go, four days for Ryujin to come and visit me!

An unusual animation took over my chest, making me forget about repetitive nausea.

I need to buy a new outfit! Do the hair! and her favorite food! Would she spend the night with me? Just in case I would shave. 👁️👄👁️

However, all that excitement was gone as soon as they touched my back and I ended up going back to the normal world, it was Taeyeon.

"Hmm" she murmured as soon as she saw me "Sickness isn't it?" I nodded "Yeji...Yeji..." the woman repeated sitting closer and holding my hands, she looked at every inch of my face and then nodded as if she found a certainty there.

"Ryujin helped you a lot, didn't she? I know you see her as her point of protection, her safe haven, her best safe haven. And she sees you that way too, you saved her, saved her from hasty choices, you made her want to live one more time, and now... someone will need both of you to live too."

"Who?" I asked with slight fear, a slight fear, and a slight certainty.

"Someone here" her hands fell on my belly, my throat forming a huge knot trying to formulate what was happening, Taeyeon had her eyes closed and was serious, but she smiled after a while.

"Ah yes, there's someone forming in here. Two people graduating in here, identical. Identical to Ryujin, but will have different personalities."

"One will be calm as gentle as the breeze, it will make you very proud. The other will be hard as an earthquake, but will keep you strong when the bad waves come. In here, Yeji there are two treasures that will help you and Ryujin go back to the way you used to be."

"I...I'm pregnant" that wasn't a question, but something I need to process, my eyes went up to Karina, Chaeryeong, and Yeonjun, who were looking at each other, I was supposed to be happy, right? "with twins?"

"Believe me, Yeji you may be scared now, or even not like the news, but these girls will be your joy when everything falls apart. Come on, she needs to be alone and think for a while."

Think? What should I think about? Why did I have to think?

It was nothing new if I didn't go down to dinner, it had been like that for a while. The days passed slowly, I couldn't get out of the room and when I got out of bed it was just to throw up or shower.

Until it was completed seven days, I didn't do production as I had planned or at least prepare something for her, I didn't know how her reaction would be, she could make an excuse and she would never see me again.

What if she wasn't ready to be a mother, and didn't come out? This could happen, many things could happen.

The sun was reasonably weak, the day cloudy but it was still two o'clock in the afternoon when I sat on a rock there at the entrance to the village.

I waited, waited smiled and waved at the other women who walked down to the river with basins of laundry, or even chatted with a child or two.

I was about to head back home, but I stopped as soon as I saw a silhouette appear on the trail.

I could recognize her from miles away.

Ryujin had a wide smile on her face, and from afar I could see the tears that fell from her eyes, her black strands lose and curled at the ends, and an air of being homesick.

She threw her backpack to the floor carelessly, opening her arms as I ran to her, throwing me against her body and letting her sobs take over the brief silence that stretched out.

"I missed you so much, Yeddeong. I missed you so much, my love..."

"I thought you wouldn't come." I mumbled still very weak and getting dizzy from the shortness of breath that my crying caused "Please don't stop hugging me"

"I'm here, my little one. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere until tomorrow morning" she cupped my face, sweeping those brownish green eyes over there "You look different"

"Hmm?"

"Looks down"

"It's your impression, come on, it's getting cold here."

Ryujin picked up her backpack, following me to the big house, Taeyeon stopped her at the door, smiling at me and then at her.

"It's dinnertime, honey. My name is Taeyeon, and this is my son Yeonjun."

"Nice to meet you, Ryujin" Yeonjun smiled stretching out his hand, but Ryujin didn't take it, looking him up and down, the boy was embarrassed, just scratching the back of his head trying to disguise the great vacuum he had taken.

"Why don't you go upstairs and take a shower? Yeji can show you the room."

I tensed, afraid Taeyeon would say something about the pregnancy, but she just looked at me and nodded.

I held Ryujin's hand leading her to a suite that Yeonjun had arranged for both of us, giving the excuse that "the lovebirds can't share a room with Chaeryeong and Karina on their love night" I just laughed at her comment, he was being a good friend.

"Yeonjun, are you friends?"

"Huh, he's a nice man" I said taking off her coat and leaving it on top of an armchair. I saw when her jaw locked "What is it?"

"Nothing, I'm going to take a shower for dinner" I didn't understand when she passed me in a cold, and even a little rude way.

"Can I go with you?" I asked quietly, cringing a little at her mere ignorance in my eyes.

"Of course, my love come here."

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