Hermitcrap

Second Time(2)

Exeli POV 

     So. . . take two. This time, I'm going to draw blood. I'm not gonna be wimpy like last time. 

     Wait. . . Xisuma is out there where the knifes are. . . oh well. I still have these scissors that will work. I don't know how to use them though. . . do I snip with them? Is that how it works? Maybe I use them like a knife? I think that could do it. My arm will be a good spot. Wow, I'm not actually nervous this time. Cool! 

     Scissors are hard to use. They won't draw blood! Then again, the knife didn't, but still. These won't either. Maybe I should try again? 

     No. Still didn't. Ok, what if I cut again, but in the same spot. Maybe that will work? 

     I really suck at this. 

     Oh wait, their flaming up! I don't want anyone to see them. Why did I cut in the middle of my arm? That's obviously going to be seen! 

     I still want to though. . . I can on my shoulder. That would work. 

     My first sight of blood! There's a little bit of blood! Yes! It's really small, but still! 

     It's not bleeding. The hole is too small for bleeding. Are you kidding me? Ugh. 

     Maybe. . . I'll do a few more. 

     Hopefully no one sees my shoulder, because that is very obvious what I'm doing. No one is that clumsy to get that many scars on one part of their body, especially a graceful gal like me. Wait, I'm actually pretty clumsy, aren't I. I stumbled last week, graceful people never stumble. 

     I'm gonna do one more. On my hand. That one, I can explain pretty easily. 

     Oh wow. It's bleeding. A lot. What do I do, I think I clean it? But Xisuma is right there. . . uhh, what do I do? 

     Maybe. . . I just. . . lick it? 

     Ew. Blood tastes weird. 

     It actually worked. The bleeding stopped. Am I a cat or something? What? I don't think that's normal. 

     Ok, I'm done. Unless. . . just one more. 

     This one didn't draw blood. Ok. Now I'm done. What now? I never really thought about why I cut, did I? It can't just to be to prove a point to myself. Am I really that weak that I need to? I guess so. . . 

     I keep looking at my scars. That's probably suspicious. I just can't stop though. Their so pretty. . . I'll make more soon. Maybe tomorrow.