Behind The Door of Mannat [ON HOLD]

20th Anniversary (2)

— Trip to Goa —

Wow, the celebration was amazing. We were showered by so much love from our closest people. The day made me emotional as I remember how desperate and how helpless I was back then. I was being a jerk, controlled by my arrogance, my stupidity, my lack of sensitivity towards my own wife. I blamed her for my mistake. I abused her for my negligence. If I was able to have a confession ritual, maybe it would be the longest one that has ever been held.

I'm not gonna talk about that again. Never. I just wanna forget it, move on, and start a new chapter in my life. How about we started it with ... talking about how much I love my wife now?

Well, maybe you've heard my boring speech about her on the anniversary day. It was boring and outdated, wasn't it? Like, I've been repeating the same sentence, the same story, the same expression for ages. You must've been bored to hear them. No, you don't have to lie. I know that.

But, for your information, I love praising her like that. I want to praise her for every second of my life. I've got our marriage life messed up, which I committed as a sin, and I want to pay for it. Actually I was, am, paying for it. I lost at some point in the last few years but I never complained. I take it for granted. I know what I did and I'm aware of the consequences.

Kajol never leaves my side even when I'm paying the price for what I did to her. She has always been so supportive and so helpful. I survived till today because of her. Her generous heart, her enormous love, her beautiful face, her attractive physical appearance-no, that shouldn't be included-had created a new life for me. She made my dreams come true. We're living our dreams step by step. The life we are consuming right now is what we've been dreaming twenty years ago. A life where there's no place for anything but love, respect, and affection.

As scheduled, we will go to Goa to spend some time together today. Aryan bought us two plane tickets but we preferred to go by road. I never have a road trip with her. I think it would be amazing. Driving a long way while listening to her stories, singing the song on the stereo, debating on which road we should take... Ah, I already feel delighted just by imagining it in my mind. It will be a total fun for sure!

We begin the trip by 8 in the morning. It's a bit early for me, but as I have her by my side it wouldn't be a big problem. I know she'll take care of the rest. The kids were having tantrums right before we went. Last night, I explained to them what Kajol and I would have on this trip. They seemed to understand but I don't know what this tantrum is for now. Luckily we got the entire family to take care of them. My mother-in-law and Tichie had come too. Aryan managed it all for us so we can enjoy the trip and not worry about matters at home.

I brought out my new X3 from the basement. Kajol loves SUVs, I don't know why, so I decided to use this. After saying goodbye to everyone, we left Mannat with a delightful heart. The weather is quite hot and sunny, I hope it will still be like this when we reach Goa. Because what's even the point of spending holiday on beach if the day is raining?

Kajol leaned on my shoulder. I hold her hand while my other hand stays in the steering wheel. The jukebox is playing our songs. She's humming the lyrics. It felt like nostalgia, just like the old times. Just me, her, and our world.

"You smell so good." She compliments my Dunhill & Diptyque. It's always her favorite scent. I love making her impressed with my look.

I smirked. "Always, na?" She just nodded while sniffing around my neck.

"The show has not started yet, ma'am. Someone could see us." I said as I'm trying to focus on the road and maps. I don't want to waste my time taking a turn because I miss a road.