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words i want to say

Dear beloved,

  there's a lot of things i want to say that it gets all mumbled up in my head. I love you, first and foremost, and i miss you. I haven't even seen you yet but i miss you, for some reason. I want to see you then hug you as soon as i do. Just a hug. A big, warm hug.

I miss hearing you. I miss waking up in the morning, you peacefully sleeping as the first thing i see in the mornings. Sweeping the floors with you. Swaying to the music with you. Playing the guitar with you. Hearing you sing. Your stupid antics. Your stupid face. You. But, haven't had the luxury of those things.

Why can't i just be with you? Why can't i just see you, face to face, in person, see you? Why? I only ask this one thing and this thing only; see you.

Maybe I'm too focused on you to actually think about other things like what the place looks like, or what places i might go to. Maybe i should just stop focusing on all of you and start focusing on what i think our place looks like. But I can't really heat what the universe has to say, can i?

I wish the universe could just say outright what i need to do to get where you are, you know? Just say the answer and not tell it through vague messages. Or maybe i already know the answer and i was just ignoring it because it wasn't what i wanted. I don't know. I just want a hug. Preferably from you.

I know i can do it, i know it. I know i can get to you i just need some motivation and reassurance that i can and will get there. I have been there. I have and i can do it again. Yeah. I can. I know i can, it's just a matter of when.

I look forward to the day i get a hug.

Your beloved, Ambrosia.