yours | beomjun

[bonus]

It’s been 2 years since the sudden tragedy of beomgyu.

It hasn’t been the same since. The practice has always been so down and all, everyone’s so drained out to the point that they needed a month break to think this through before going back to stage with the fans.

They get scolded a lot and that's understandable since they suddenly started feeling so down.

But Yeonjun didn't give up.

He wanted to leave the group and leave for the better but where does that take him? Will it get Beomgyu back? No. So instead, he worked harder and stayed for Beomgyu.

“Hey, Yeonjun hyung!” Kai shouted from afar. Yeonjun turned to look at Kai and flashed a smile to him. “Hey Kai! What's up?”

He sighed in frustration. “Ugh nothing. Just something's going on.”

“What?” Yeonjun questioned, looking at Kai.

Kai scoffed and rolled his eyes. “I guess Taehyun-snitch is back again.”

“Excuse me what?” Taehyun suddenly interrupts.

Uh oh.

“Oh, u were there?—”

“For your information, I am here. And just to clarify, I did not snitch on you, you stupid dumbass! You tied my shoes while I wasn't looking just so I can trip while practicing?! That’s just- ugh, mean!”

Kai laughed. “Calm down!! I was joking!”

Taehyun rolled his eyes in annoyance. “Blah, blah! Whatever!”

Yeonjun in between them just laughed it off and left the two to argue and trade one another.

He then entered the dance practice room and bowed to the staffs around, they’re here to monitor.

Yeonjun walked up to Soobin who was beside Heeseung while he’s on his phone. “Hey, Soobin!”

Soobin turned to look at Yeonjun hyung and flashed him a smile before putting his phone down.

“I’m so glad you're here. Where are the two?” Soobin asked.

“They were on their way here but I'm guessing they stopped by to grab some water.” Yeonjun said with a little laugh.

Soobin smiled and nodded. “Let's just wait for them before we start practicing.

Yeonjun nodded. “Hm, okay.”

He then turned to his side to see Heeseung, he walked up to him and sat beside him.

“Hey, what’re you doing?” Yeonjun asked, trying to peek

only for heeseung to hide it.

“Just drawing, why?” He asked, he’s drawing something on his phone.

“Nothing, I was just asking. What’re you drawing?” He asked again.

“I'll show you later, I’m half way done.” Heeseung spoke.

The door then swung open then there, Taehyun and Kai entered, laughing and teasing each other.

Yeonjun then shifts his eyes back to Heeseung with a small smile. “That's fine. Take ur time.” He said before stooding up to go and approach the others for the practice.

And then there, they started practicing with the staff's monitor.

They were scolded or praised a lot and it kinda motivated them.

Once they finished, the staffs clapped, along with Heeseung.

“Nice job today, boys!” One of them shouted and they smiled, thanking each one of them.

“Hyung!” Heeseung then shouted to catch up with Yeonjun.

Yeonjun turned to him and hummed as Heeseung smiled softly.

“I finished the drawing.” He spoke.

“Oh really??? What is it?” Yeonjun excitedly asked.

“Here!”

Heeseung turned the tablet to face Yeonjun. Yeonjun was smiling softly but as he saw the drawing, his eyes started to form tears but he was still smiling, and even wider now.

It was Beomgyu.

Beomgyu is in the drawing.

“H-hyung?” Soobin asked after he noticed Yeonjun tearing up.

“N-no, I’m fine... I love it, Heeseung.. It’s so pretty.” Yeonjun softly smiled as he wipes his tears away.

Heeseung looks at Yeonjun in a worry. “Hyung, you know he'll always look out to you, right? Seeing you cry... That will hurt him.”

Yeonjun nodded and sniffled. “Yes, I know. But I can't help it. I’m sorry, gyu..”

“No please, don't be.” Soobin pouts as he pulled Yeonjun into a hug.

A moment later, Soobin comforted Yeonjun and so did Heeseung.

Yeonjun then turned to Heeseung. “Hey, can I keep the drawing?”

Heeseung smiled and nodded. “Of course, I’ll send it to you!”

“Thank you.”

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Yeonjun packed his things and placed it on his bed. He then exits his room as he covered himself with a mask, a hat and mostly a black jacket.

He then exits the company and dragged himself inside the car before the engine started, driving somewhere.

“I'll be out for 30 minutes. I’ll call you when I’m done.” He spoke in a low tone and his manager nodded before he exits the car.

He then walked alone with his hands on his pocket and then stopped by at Beomgyu's grave.

“Hey, my gyu!” He softly spoke with a small smile. “It's been two years, my love.. I miss you..” He slowly spoke and then, for 2 years, another tear fell, he’s already so used to this.

He can't help himself but cry right infront of Beomgyu. “I miss you, like crazy..”

“I hope you're resting well though. I love you very much..” He mumbled.

“I love you because you're you. I love and miss you. I wish I can just hug you right now, even if it's only a second, that's worth it. I wanna feel your hug and comfort again. I've been working so hard for you, my love. To the point, I overwork myself, which you totally hate. But this isn't something new to me, I'm fine with it. All I want is to feel your hug again, your kisses... oh gosh, I miss those plumpy lips. Everything about you makes me go crazy, I miss all of it. Everything. I miss yous so much, so much...” He said, desperately wanting to feel Beomgyu's presence again,

even if it is the last time,

with a proper goodbye.

He then sniffled as he chuckled. “Anyways, I'm doing it again..”

He laughed it off. “I'm sorry.” He said with a small smile before checking the time and clicked his tongue.

“Anyways, I gotta go now.. I'll visit you again Beomgyu, same time, everyday. I love you and rest well, my honeybee.”

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