these days, i realized i am in a quarter life crisis. i got a real career dilemma. it's been months since my last job, and i realize that i still know nothing about what's best for me. isnt it funny? no its not tho, im going to cry lmao why am i such a sloth? why do i need so much time to think?
i asked few people, even those i dont know anonymously. one told me that i need to sacrifice, because everything is not about passion, everything is not about what i like. i have to embrace what i dont like, too. I have to set my priorities and go for the best choice.
it suddenly reminds me of the last book i read. im being reminded of the purpose diagram or what people usually call ikigai diagram again today. to find ikigai, we can go for either what we like/ what brings money / what the world needs /or what can i do first. it's not always from what we like. and how do we know whether we like something before trying it? we have to try.
i write this chapter after being hesitant whether the job i just applied is right for me. after thinking about it again, it's kinda funny. i havent even been accepted lmao. i dont even know whether i like it. why am i so hesitant? maybe because i had to turn around, getting further from what i like? and im afraid that i would hate it, haha.
either way, by writing this im being reminded again of the reason i applied for that job. i want to take challenges. i want to know whether it's right for me or not. the only way is to try.
at least im going forward, step by step.
the funny thing is, i realized my passion through this job interview. i didn't know it well until now. that's so unexpected.
it's so amazing that i found my passion through a job interview.
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