Two Worlds Collide

Part 18

I didn't really know how to act after all this, all four of us were in the car sitting in complete silence while driving to the warehouse. We finally got to the spot where we needed to walk into the warehouse. The building was huge I know they told me it was a big warehouse but for some reason, in my head, I thought it was going to be the skeleton of a building not look in perfect condition. We walked into the building and I was amazed by how much graffiti and garbage was inside the building. "So this is where it all started for us," Colby said with his arms up turning in a circle "Wow this thing is huge," I said walking around slowly making sure that I didn't step on a needle or something that could give me tetanus. Colby ended up leaving shortly after to go see his family and Katrina wanted to go back to the hotel so Sam thought it would be a good idea if we spent some time together since we really haven't done any "sibling bonding". We went to an ice cream shop downtown and then went and sat at a bench watching the sunset, we made small talk but nothing really serious. But since we are supposed to be getting to know each other and he said he would be there I guess it is time to get vulenerable. "Sam, can I tell you something?" "Uh yeah what up?" He said stuffing his face with ice cream " "Ok, well here is a little bit of why I am the way I am. When I was young my dad wasn't always around not like physically but mentally, half the time I don't really think he cared about me and was happiest when he was screaming at me, but then he would come back and be the best dad in the world." I could feel myself starting to tear up because I don't talk about my dad ever because there isn't really anything to talk about. "This kept going on and off until I was around 17 and then a switched flipped and I was his worst nightmare no matter what I did and I tried EVERYTHING to make him happy." At this point, the tears are running and Sam looks like he is seeing red. "I got to the point where I gave up and didn't care what he thought of me anymore, so whenever a guy comes into my life and gives me attention and starts treating me right, then leaves and comes back, I can never stay away. I'm trying to fix that about myself but it is really hard because I just want to feel love from a man who will actually stay. That's why when I found out that you were my brother I was so excited because I thought finally someone that won't leave and then you acted like you didn't really care and want me here and it really broke me again and that's why I held onto Colby so hard" I'm full-on crying at this point and Sam looked like he wanted to punch a wall but also like he wanted to hug me and never let go. "Drew, I really don't know what to say that makes a lot of sense now and I wish you would have told me that earlier I know you didn't because why would you want to with how I treated you, but I promise I am going to change and be your brother and the man in your life that won't leave." He looked at me with tears in his eyes and smiled at me. We continued to talk for hours until it was almost midnight and Colby and Katrina were blowing up our phones wondering if we were still alive. We headed back to the hotel and I feel really good about Sam and I's sibling relationship and hopefully, it stays this way.