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I'm hurting him, I'm hurting Gram. I did all this to make him happy but all I'm doing is causing him pain.
I leave the bar in an instant, I can't stand seeing others hurt because of me
I get on my ride and head home without looking back
—
I arrive home and go straight to bed. I grab my phone to check the time and it's nearly 10:30. I shut off my phone and lay there staring at the wall
Why can't I just admit my feelings for him? I love him don't I? I did all this because I love him, why do I keep pushing him away?
I stay up most of the night thinking about him, and about how I wish I could change what happened. I wish I could go back in time and fix this, I'm afraid it's too late
—
I knock on Grams door waiting for him to answer
"Gram! Open the door!"
He doesn't answer.
"Gram! If you don't open the door I will myself!"
No answer.
with everything I have I push the door open. And what I see past the door almost brings me to my knees.
Gram is standing there. With a gun to his head, ready to pull the trigger
"Gram.. what are you doing? Put the gun down."
Gram starts breaking down in tears but doesn't put the gun down
"you never loved me"
"Yes I did Gram! I'm sorry I never told you, I shouldn't of pushed you away. I should've talked to you, I'm sorry for hurting you Gram, I never meant to, please, I'm sorry"
as if Gram didn't hear me, he looks be dead in the eyes and says
"I always loved you Black, I wish you felt the same"
the last thing I saw was Grams lifeless body falling to the floor
—
I jolt awake, and look around realizing it wasn't real. It was only a dream.
"fuck"
I can't deal with this anymore. I don't want to be haunted by my own faults. I grab my phone once again to check the time and it's almost 3 in the morning
I sat there trying to figure out what to do. After moments of thinking, I knew what I had to do
I grab a hoodie and keys and head out the door, I walk down the stairs to my motorbike and get on. I don't care about how fast I go on my way to Grams place
—
I arrive at Grams house shaking, I need to do this.
I walk up the stares and find his room, I hesitate knocking because he might not answer, but I'm already this far, no going back now
I knock at door
No answer
"Gram! Open the door!"
still no answer
fuck
"Gram! Please I need to talk to you"
This time, the door is swung open by Gram, he looks confused at why I'm here and half out of it, clearing not fully awake
"Black? What are you doing here?"
it's now or never
I push Gram into his room and he stumbles back but catches himself
before I can take back anything, I do what I needed to do
I lean up and kiss him, Gram doesn't respond for a moment but after awhile he realizes what's happening and kiss back with as much desperation.
the moment is ended quickly when Gram pulls away.
he still wants this right?
"What about Eugene?" He says with something in his eyes, I can't tell what it is? Hurt?
I put my hand on his neck and push our foreheads together and finally, after all the shit I put him through, I give him the truth
"I only want you."
thank you so much for reading! It means a lot! After everything, black finally admits his feelings! This was the chapter that brought me to write this fanfic! I don't know if I'll end it here or keep going! Please let me know if I should keep going! If so, please give any ideas or suggestions you want me to write about! make sure to comment and vote! Thank you for all the support ❤️
