Our Aquarium

23 ~ Wesley

Fuck! What am I doing with her? Why do I keep chasing her? Why does she keep pushing me away? Why can't I find the answers I want?

I have to admit that I'm scared. I'm scared of losing Eliana. I'm scared that I'll never be able to love her the way I truly want to because she keeps pushing me away.

Yeah I know, I'm an idiot who calls their girl insecure. But I see brutal honesty as the best policy. She'll be mad at me for a few more minutes but we aren't going to sleep like this. If she doesn't want to talk, I'll do the talking and make her listen.

Stepping into my room, I find Eliana standing in front of my bed. Her breath is shaky as I approach her and cup the sides of her neck. Looking into her desert sand eyes I claim her soft lips, hers gently move against mine before she pulls away.

"You can't solve everything with a kiss, this isn't some stupid fairytale or movie where bullshit like that happens."

I pull her into my arms and hold her close. "I know. But I needed to do it."

Her arms come around me and she holds me tighter.

"You are amazing," I whisper in her ear. "You are beautiful and I couldn't be a luckier man to have met you. I'm sorry for looking into your confidential things, but when you ordered me you were subjected to a background check. Zeke told me to be careful with you when I told him that you worked for my parents."

She looks up at me with watery eyes. I hold her gaze.

"I do think you are insecure but I like the confidence you have when we are together. I just want to see it on you all the time," I tell her truthfully. I can't lie to her. Especially not now.

"I'm sorry," she whispers against my chest.

I chuckle and stroke her hair and revel in this moment before finally letting her go and smacking her ass. I needed something to get my playful girl back. She shoves me in retaliation.

I pick her up and toss her onto the bed hovering over her as I watch her lick her kissable lips. Ugh. "Alright, sweetness how about you go get changed and then we can get some food?"

She nods then pushes out from under me to go to the closet. She pulls out a robe and while she's in the bathroom I change out of my suit and into some very comfortable sweats.

When she comes back she looks happier, which makes me happier. There's a small smirk on her face as she leans against the bathroom doorway and plays with the tie on her robe.

"I'm curious," she says softly. "How do you do the tying up stuff?"

I love when she's curious. It's usually about something sexual. My nipples. Anal. And now bondage.

When I hold my hand out for her she makes her way over and steps into my arms. I prefer this over five minutes ago.

Chuckling, I pull her into my lap and kiss her cheek."Do you want Cava?"

"And a passion fruit tea?" She does that thing with her eyes that makes me weak. Oh she is good.

Standing up I fix her robe and place a kiss to her cheek. "Slip on some shoes and let's go get some food."

"Do you mind taking me home afterwards? I feel like I spend more time at your place than I do my own."

What? I don't want her to go home I want her to stay with me. Holding back a pout was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. That's a lie, not kissing her is the hardest thing.

Eliana seems to understand what's going on in my head as she cups my face. "I didn't say you have to leave. But I have a lot of stuff to do and it will be easier if I stay at my place tonight."