Not who I used to be
I am everything you would've hated
I am untidy, my hair always a mess
Much like my thoughts
You come to me every so often
Just like right now
Wondering if you would look down at me
Are you in heaven?
Is there a place such?
I miss falling
Knowing you would catch me
I hope you can't see me
Can't stomach who I've become
Yet I don't regret her
She is the version that survived
And I don't resent that fact
Just that I am not who you wanted me to be
She misses you too
Enough to make her cry
They both need you
Pretty sure I do too
Wherever you are
Please don't look down on me
