Secret PenPal within the little Palace

Frist letters

Amira's pov: 

I sat around with my friends trying to figure out what to write since my person was the General. I didn't know what the A stood for but since the rules were the first initial I just had to keep going. Nadia and Marie were already finishing their letters and I hadn't even started. I saw them smile at each other but when they looked at me I looked down feeling embarrassed. 

"Amira, what's wrong?" Nadia asked as I rubbed the back of my neck. "I don't..know what to write.." I admitted

Marie and Nadia seemed to sympathize with me but I shrugged, but then Fedyor walked over handing me a paper. I was surprised. "Your first letter." Fedyor said as I accepted it and took it from him but he could see mine was blank and he just walked away. Marie and Nadia got exicted as they move and sat on each side of me. "Well open it." Nadia said as I took a deep breath and opened it. 

Hello Summoner, 

Your symbols are intriguing, but I did check my list and you are not listed as a Sun Summoner as far as I know. While I may not know who you are right now, I can only assume you are one of our Tidemakers. I question what it may be like for someone to have a dual nature and why you choose to hide who you are? You must feel isolated from the others of 2nd army with having to conceal yourself. Please indulge in what you do to maintain such a silence to your secret. 

Are you intentionally wanting to keep yourself unknown for the fear of the pressure that would fall on you? I know that with the fold it must been an easier way to conceal yourself from others knowing the truth. A burden you now have put yourself in with people never knowing who you truly are. 

Know if you decide to come forward with the truth to the others, you will have an ally. 

-General Kirigan

I read over it a few times seeing his letter was sincere, but I'd already cracked that door I was hiding behind and there was no going back. I couldn't close it again..not like this with writing letters to participate in this exchange. It made me nervous and also worried that he would figure it out within a just three letters. 

"He's curious about you...you wrote your true nature on your card." Nadia said as I just nod. I knew I owed him a reply. Marie though couldn't shake an opportunity to tease me "Aw, what if you and the General end up together? That's happened during this thing...every year one or three groups of two end up together..or end up sleeping together." Marie said as I just blushed at the thought now. I shook it off after a few minutes before deciding to write my letter back. 

General,

You're right, I am not listed as a Sun Summoner but then I have lived with this burden my whole life. Ravka needs a true Sun Summoner who is not a mixed breed Grisha so I choose to hide within a group of summoners I am comfortable with. Isolation is something I did once feel, but I have friends who accept me so it's not that lonely of a life. 

I never intentionally kept anything from anyone but it is my life to choose what I felt was best for myself. A child could not live with such a burden on their shoulders and yet I've known since I first arrived that I would. I had no choice but to choose silence for my own gain of getting stronger. I train hard without someone looking at me and expecting me to push myself until I nearly die. 

I don't expect you to understand what it is like for someone like myself to look in a mirror and know I'm playing a part. I remind myself everyday that I'm only showing half of who I am and I've accepted that. But I suppose that I'm losing my need to remain silent...I wanted to share with someone else who I am. 

I wonder, you skip out every year of this exchanging letters so why this year? Surely you had other options or did you have a feeling something was going to happen? I'm quite curious and wish to know. 

-A 

Marie and Nadia noticed when I was done, I smiled as they looked over my letter and laughed a bit. "You'll keep the mystery going for awhile." Nadia said as I laughed before folding it and then Marie took them handing them Fedyor who went to deliver them. I merely just tried to relax. 

Aleksander's Pov: 

I wondered if I inquired too much with this summoner as I looked over the list again of the ones with the letter A. I knew I couldn't narrow it down by the rules but it still bothered me that a Sun Summoner could slip through my fingers. Still when Fedyor brought a letter, I was actually surprise she wrote so fast as I'd expected she wouldn't have. 

"Your letter sir." Fedyor said as I took it and then looked over it. She was bold that was clear by her handwriting but she was signing it with A. As I read her letter back though I could tell she did not feel she was worthy of being Ravka's savior. That had to change now that I knew a Sun Summoner was there within the little palace. She had friends, that was a clue to who she was but did not name who.

The part she said about not expecting him to understand what it was like to play part of herself. He knew all took well with the fact that he was the Black Heretic but played as he was a descendant of the black heretic.

A, 

It does not matter if you are a mixed breed Grisha what you can do is amazing. Summon the light, the light is hope for everyone but you also have Tidemaker. No one could ever compare, not even a normal Sun Summoner. The idea you want summoners around to accept you must mean you have shared your secret of being a Two class summoner with them.

Everyone has a choice on what they do with their small science. even you who has gained not one but two. It is great to hear that you have trained with both, the saints must be looking down upon you if you made it this far without being detected by any of those who haven't know.

You have taken a risk of revealing yourself to another, but did you expect your card would end up in my hand? I am looking forward to the day I get to put your Grisha symbols to your face and know the person who is. Perhaps with time you will be ready to embrace your true nature of being both.

Things have been busy but Fedyor asks every year and every year I told him no. Perhaps the saints have given me the feeling of something was different this year. Now that I've answered your questions. Perhaps you will answer mine since I am sure you are far from wanting others to know. 

Are your parents Grisha? Sometimes Small science can be inherited directly from a parent. Has Baghra known about you all this time and kept you concealed? Do you long for the day you can walk amongst your peers and be accepted for who you truly are? 

-General Kirigan