The Volturi Are Coming For Me

Back With The Volturi

The run to the Volturi house was long and tiring so as soon as we got there I ran to my room and slammed the door shut. I didn't talk to anyone especially Alec right now. I just wanted to go to sleep and think if I made the right decision. I missed Jared like crazy and I couldn't get his hurt eyes out of my head. It crushed me to see him like that so much that I almost said I wanted to stay, but I didn't want to see any more bloodshed, and if the only thing I had to do was follow back to my old past and forget that I was ever in love to save the man I loved I would do it over and over again. I would be in misery for the rest of my life if Jared could be safe and happy for even just one minute. Just as I got into the warm cozy bed and closed my eyes, when I heard someone come into my room and murmur good night love. Right then I knew that it was Alec. He had done that same thing over and over every night that I had lived here before I left, it was the one constant thing that I could hold on to. This small gesture had been one of the reasons I had fallen for him. He did the smallest gesture's that made my heart earn for him. But at this moment that familiarity discussed me, how could he think that we could go back to normal after all that had happened. Couldn't he see that I didn't want to be here and that he missed his chance with me a long time ago. I didn't care that he has all this power. I just want to go home and have fun with my friends and see my family. They were what made being a vampire worth being and they had also made me feel human again. I had forgotten what that feeling was. 

Everyday when there is meal time or should I say a few hundred humans come to see the oldest building in the world only to be eaten by a few hundred vampires. I wouldn't come out because I was used to eating animals so Alec would leave blood bags at my door thinking I would one day drink it if I got thirsty enough. After a couple weeks he realized that I wasn't drinking them so he went out and got me animal blood thinking I would drink it, but I still didn't drink it. When we left I promised him that I would not drink any blood and I was always one to stick to my promises.  After a month he got so desperate. Even knocked on my door thinking I would open it. The only one I would let in my room was Jane so he asked her to get me to drink some blood but even when she came in she wouldn't make me. I would not stop till he brought me to my one and only home. Every day I was getting weaker. So weak I couldn't even stand up. Soon I would die if I didn't drink blood so he had to bring me home. Soon even Jane got worried and came again to try and get me to drink. 

"You have to drink something even a little bit, I am starting to get worried about you" Jane stated

"I made a promise to Alec that if I came here I would not eat or drink until he let me go back to my real family" I responded 

"Your real family? I thought I was your family"

"Of course you will always be my family Jane. You are the first person that made me feel welcomed here and made all this vampire make sense when I was just trying to realize how my dream trip had gotten so messed up, but Jared is the man that I will always love dearly, he is my soulmate. The one man that I finally believe I deserve and he was the first one to find me when I left here. He was the first one to show me to a safe place and people to show me how to live in the world with humans. I was safe and I felt loved their more then I have every done here because the Cullen's love each other. They care and would do anything for each other while here with the Volturi they only care about power and manipulating the people around them to get what they want. I want to be in a place where people care about love and not being the strongest one. I want to go home so bad and I do not care what measures I have to go to get back to them as long as I one day get back to them. " I shared 

A week after that conversation I realized that I had been there for four months now I was too weak to make a sound so when Jane came to visit like she always did, she found me on the floor passed out when I fell off the bed and couldn't get up. I was almost at the point of death and I was ready for it, death was better then living another day without Jared's warm embrace around me. She ran out and got Alec hoping he could save me and change his mind into letting me go back. Since he was the leader of the Volturi it was his call and only his call. He got some animal blood and forced it down my throat , as much as I wanted to stop him so I could die in peace, it would grant me the privilege of never giving him what he wanted ever again. Soon after I finished all the blood I slowly started to open my eyes and a wave of sadness washed over me, there was no way I was going home ever again because I could go to the brink of death and he could bring me back every time and I would be to weak to stop him. An endless cycle that could only be broken with his command, he once again had all the power over me and I was helpless all over again. 

Then Alec said I needed to go on a run to get more blood in my system but I refused, by then he was fed up and he came and dragged me out of my safe room out into the treacheries of the big castle. I did not want to listen to him but there was no other option, this was my new reality and I would never have any power over myself. I would always belong to him in one way or another. After a long run we ran into a clearing I never thought I would run into again, flashbacks' went to when Jared first brought me here. I was terrified at that moment with him even though I knew that Jared would never hurt me because I was not used to feeling as safe as I did when he was around me. There was my one and only home. The Cullen's house. My first place that made me feel more alive then I had ever felt. Through the window I could see Renesmee young face looking through the window right at me with so much excitement.  All this time I was raging at Alec in my mind but he was bringing me to the one place I had fully let go of because I had felt like I was never coming back here. Maybe he was not as bad as I had felt like he was all these years thinking he was, maybe somewhere deep deep down he did have a heart somewhere in that dark soul of his.