The darkest days

12

I shoot up panting and in a cold sweat.
Stop,Stop thinking about it!
I yelled at myself mentally for dreaming the same thing over and over. I decided to lay down in the R.V. to take a little nap and to get away from everyone starring at me and asking me what happened. I get up and I decided to perch myself on top of the R.V. like always. I pull out a cross word puzzle and I start to write down the answers quickly. the silence engulfs me as I adjust my glasses and I hear swarms of different bugs make music in the forest.
I look around and I see Rick walk towards Shane."this oughta be good." I mumble under my breath. I see them start to quarrel and I shake my head in disapproval. I take out a cigarette from my flannel and I light it up,feeling the stress lifting up from my shoulders "Those are bad for you."I hear a little voice say from the ground. I see whisps of black hair and A little girl turn around with blood on her freckled face,"No,no,no.",I say shaking my head and holding my head."You're not real."I say shaking my head a little as I try and make the girl go away. I close my eyes shut and I open them to find an empty space. "Thank god."I sigh as I take a stressful drag of my cigarette,"Are you okay?",I hear Glenn ask and I jump a little bit."Yeah...just tired is all."
I say as I take another drag. I see Shane walk out from the woods with a duffle bag with a angry face."This isn't going to be good." I say standing up and climbing off of the R.V. to the steps of the farm house where daryl and A bunch of the other camp members are.
"You do what you think is safe but just please be safe.",I whisper to him as I look down at my shoes. I look up and I see him grunt and nod towards me. I stand behind him quietly as I see Glenn and Maggie approach us. They sit down and I walk over to the swinging bench as I see Daryl walk over to Shane,"What's all this?"Daryl asks as Shane gets him a shot gun from the bag and looks at me,"You with me man?",He says looking at Daryl and pointing his head toward me."Yeah.",Daryl says taking the gun and cocking it.
"Time to grow up." Shane says calmly as he asks Andrea if she has her piece."Where's Dale?",She asks as He walks past her"He's on his way." He says quickly as He hands T-Dog a hand gun"I thought we couldn't carry." He said as I watch every one get a little panicky. I shake my head and I stand Up,watching Shane."We can and we have to." He says in a harsh tone."Now Look! It was one thing sitting around here picking daisies when we thought this place was supposed to be safe.But now we know we ain't" He says looking at all of us,he walks to Glenn and grabs a gun from the bag."How about you,man?You gonna protect yours?"He says handing Glenn a gun.Glenn nods and takes the gun."Can you stop?"Maggie asks and I sit back down."You do this,you hand out these guns,My dad will make you leave tonight."She threatens,standing next to Glenn."We have to stay,Shane." Carl pleads .
"What is this?" Lori walks up asking.

Jesus christ! It's like I'm in a fucking soap opera!

I say to myself in my head as I hold myself once more."We ain't going anywhere,okay?"He says to Carl to reassure him"Now look,Hershel,He's just gotta understand." Shane says with a pleading tone for them to follow him.I stand up and look at him with full blown eye contact as I shake my head."Okay?He—Well,He's gonna have to" He says nodding his head and looking at me briefly as I walk down the steps to stand behind Daryl."Now we need to find Sophia,Am I right?"he asks Carl and kneels if front of him with a gun"Huh? Now I want you to take this."he says
handing him a gun."You take it,Carl,and you keep your mother safe.You do whatever it takes." Carl looks down at it and hesitates."You know how.Go on,and take the gun and do it."
I step in front of Carl and I push Carl back a little "Rick said no guns,this is not your call." I
state as I look at him with no emotion.
"This is not your decision to make."I sneer.

"Oh shit." I hear T-Dog say and I take my attention off of Shane to see what he was talking about. Rick had walkers.
We all started to sprint towards them,in the direction of the barn"What the hell are you doing?!" Shane asks dangerously aggravated."Shane,Just Back off." Rick says as he struggles with the walker"Why do your people have guns?"Hershel asks as I step back a little from the commotion so I could see how it played out.Shane yelled out angrily."Are you kiddin' me?! You See?! You see what your holdin' onto?"He yells as He circles Hershel."I see who I'm holding on to." Hershel corrects as I crouch down a little bit."No,man,You don't."Shane says harshly."Shane,just let us do this and then we can talk." Rick yells as I stand up once again,I walk over and stand next
to Carol."What you want to talk about,Rick? These things aren't sick,They're not people!"
Shane yells as I pat Carol's shaking shoulder to
reassure her but the situation is proving to be too heated."They're dead! Ain't gonna feel nothing for them! 'Cause all they do,they kill!"
He paces back and forth."These things right here,They're the things that killed Amy.
they killed Otis.They're gonna kill all of us!" He yells. I start to block everyone out and I start to hear muted gunshots and I finally snap back to see walkers falling to there ultimate death and
people sobbing and crying on their knees.I scramble up to my feet as all of the walkers are
dead. I walk towards the barn as I see the doors shake a little and I pick up a hand gun from the ground. I see a little blonde girls figure walk through the doors.I hear Carol sobbed out and I see Daryl catch her before she could get to the
little girl.I saw Rick raise his gun but his arm shook,I walked up to him and Put a hand on his shoulder as He lowered his gun and walked away. I Raise my gun as she stumbles near me,
I hear the deafening ring of the gun shot and I drop it right after as I see her fall down but I see flashes of Emma. I start to walk away but my mind starts to go numb and I feel myself falling but I fall into strong arms. I look up slightly as I see Daryl's face and He nods solemnly and I  grasp onto him and I let myself fall into broken pieces as he lowers us to the ground and I sob into his neck.
"I-I-I Saw her Dar......I saw Em!" I sobbed out as he put a hand on my back. I couldn't bare to see her Again. I sobbed out quietly,hopelessly.