Lights, Cameras, Love

Prologue

Ever since I was a little girl, I've wanted my life to be filled with 3 things. Lights, cameras, and clapper boards. And I know it sounds far too good to be true but, that's exactly how my life went. I'm one of the most loved actors of all time believe it or not and maybe that's just because I am in so many different kinds of movies but I rather not think too much about it.

But one genre I dread is romance, and hear me out the idea of being in love and finding your person sounds beautiful but it's the 21st century, and men are not even in the question right now. I guess my opinion comes solely from the fact that my parents were so quick to divorce and when that happened most if not all of my hopes and dreams were completely crushed, especially the thought of a soulmate.

So when I heard I had to act in a steamy, passionate, and not to mention a very hyped-up romance movie I nearly broke out in tears and threw up all at the same time. When you hear steamy you think tension and when I hear steamy I think "oh my god I have to be half-naked on screen, what the fuck am I going to do." but they never said doing my job would be easy.

But the hardest part of my job is the social relevance part. Everywhere I go, so do the cameras. And the worst part? they know my every move and some days it's all too much and I don't even leave my own home. That's also another reason why I never wanted a love life after high school. If i'm being honest I would give it all up just to live a life like a normal human being.

But I have no pull in this world so i'll just have to listen to the people who are over me and "make do". Maybe one day i'll make a change for every other female celebrity but who knows. I'm only 22.

Life is a funny thing when you really think about it. There's up and downs and phases of your life that can hurt you like a bitch. But to live we have to go through them whether we like it or not. Which is beyond fair but again, I have no pull.

As a celebrity you find yourself having to go through a bit more than the average standard of a up or down. I wouldn't even consider it living but more so, surviving. Our job is to entertain and be the puppets that everyone wants to see. And if we do not fulfill everyone's hopes and dreams we are tossed away, just by the snap of their fingers.

So to survive we have to plaster on a smile and do interviews upon interviews, red carpets, award shows, and social media accounts to show that we're of course relevant.

But there's one thing any celebrity has to have and that's a escape. Something or somewhere to go and get away from this thing we call life.

My escape? partying.

sorry this is kinda dragging and boring but it's important for the rest of the story.
hope you liked this :')