A Blazing Fury in my Heart <HTTYD Story Rewrite>

Emotions

<Strike's POV>

We made our way into the Cove, it feels much bigger standing in it, and somewhere deep in my chest I can practically FEEL the importance of this place. 

With the sound of wind brushing through the trees, the chirping of nearby birds and the sunlight shining through the treeline..It feels like a mythical place- A place of legend. Every breath I took somehow the air was different. It was easy to breathe, and I could feel the memories Hiccup and Toothless made. I could almost just...Forget all of my worries here.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" Toothless asked, I nodded and looked at him. "Yeah...It feels...I dunno...I can almost feel you two's bond here" I responded, looking at the sky. "So can I..It feels like almost yesterday we took our first flight" Hiccup said, petting Toothless on the head as I looked to the two.

"Again...I'm honored to be brought here...I don't deserve how kind you all have been" I said, my eyes trailing to the ground. "Why wouldn't you?" Toothless asked, worry in his voice. My heart sank.

"I-I...I'm not innocent..I've done horrible things to good people..I don't deserve the kindness you've shown me" I admitted, my eyes glued to the ground, in my heart I could feel the searing, painful grip of anxiety, judgement.

"How long ago was it..?" Toothless asked, his voice broke my heart. "A-Around a year ago now..I've been trying to make up for it this whole time...Not because I want forgiveness...I just...Want those I've harmed or...Killed..To rest easy" I told him. A urge in my chest yelled at me to look up at them, see the horror, or hatred on their faces. To face their wrath as if I were facing my executioner. I fought it off, guilt in my chest, and every breath was hard, hard like I was being strangled by those I wronged.  

A ringing filled my ears as thoughts threatened to break me once again, I closed my eyes tight as if they were about to be torn out.

"Strike..Strike!" 

I opened my eyes and looked up at Toothless, now mere inches away from my face. We made eye contact and I realized he had a paw on my shoulder, I tried to look away out of shame, but I couldn't. 

"It's okay..Strike..It's all in the past now, even though you've done people wrong..You can still make it right" Toothless said, speaking in a gentle, caring soothing voice that made my heart flutter a little, a tear escaped my eye as I fought off tears, but was failing.

The empathy in his eyes made me feel safe, my breathing faltered as I barely could hold back from just bawling my eyes out. Soon he slipped the paw on my shoulder to the back of my neck and he pulled me close, and guided my head to his shoulder. He gently pulled my mask off and I just broke, burying my face into his shoulder and I just broke down in tears.

Everything just became a blur, as hundreds of memories blurred into one long nightmare, I couldn't fight them back any longer, any of them.

Though when the worst came, I felt something. His forearms gently wrap around me and hold me, rubbing my back gently, when I could finally hear his voice.

"Let it all out..You need this..I'm here for you, Strike...Just let it all out" He said with the same gentle tone, and soon the nightmares faded to back to the corners of my mind, and soon, I just could think of me and him, alone. Him hugging and comforting me. Though one other memory was yanked to my focus.

"Oh my..My child, what happened here?" A voice called out from the trees, I felt fear deep in my heart, which was already beating quickly.

"I-I-I..." I stammered out, tears in my eyes.

A icy white fury stepped out from the trees, with deep blue eyes. As she looked around. "You did all this?" She asked. I nodded, scared, cold and tired. "Oh poor thing..They tried to kill you didn't they?" She asked, I again nodded. She slowly approached, I took a step back. "Don't be afraid..I'm like you..Tortured by the world..I have a new family now..That cares about me..Would you like to come with me?" She offered, I looked her in the eyes, and I felt..Safe, as if what just took place never happened, I nodded.

She held a paw out. "You must be exhausted..I'll carry you" She offered, and I trotted over with a limp and she gently picked me up, and soon I quickly fell to darkness..

I blocked out the memory the second I could, as I looked up from Toothless's shoulder.

"Hey.." He whispered gently, I looked up to meet his gaze. A feeling in my chest barked at me, ordering me to look away. He shouldn't see my face. But he spoke, cutting through the feeling like a Razorwhip. "You feeling any better?" He asked, I quietly nodded. He smiled, I nearly smiled back.

"I'm glad to hear that, really" He said as he let go of me and I stepped back, he passed me my mask and as I went to put it on, I stared at it for a moment before putting it on. "T-Thanks" was all I could get out. He smiled. "Don't worry about it" 

Hiccup walked over. "If you need some time Strike, me and Toothless have some things to attend to, your free to explore or chill here if you want" He said. I thought for a moment. "Can I come with you two?" I asked, not even putting thought in, and I was surprised by what slipped out of my mouth.

"If you want to, will probably be boring, but up to you" Hiccup responded. "Lead on" I said. Hiccup looked to Toothless who nodded, and we began to make our way out of the Cove, and back to the Village. Though when leaving, I paused and looked back to the Cove, remembering that moment, me breaking down but, even though I confessed to being a asshole, a monster.

Though they don't know the full of it..Only that I wronged some people..

Still..He comforted me, and I feel...So much better..Do I deserve this? Probably not..But...It was lovely, none the less.