Treat me well

eleven

Four whole bloody months I've been in this hell hole of a bedroom. The doors are closed tight including the windows too. No fresh air or birds singing, no grass. He comes in every day too feed me and massage my ankles and my wrist so I don't bruise from the cuffs which in a way I'm grateful for. My body aches all over I've been laying in the same position my bones seem to not want to work in the slightest.  So even if I did manage to free myself it wouldn't be much use. I'd be paralysed.

I sometimes wonder if my father ever thinks about me or that he even cares in the slightest. It's times like this I wish my mother was around she went through similar to connive me but, my father declines that is what happened.
As you would of guessed I'm finally pregnant and the baby is as healthy as could be. I've not touched one drop of alcohol or a cigarette since that day. I crave it all the time but I've just had to bare with it. Life was boring now so boring. I m slowly slipping into depression. I can't imagine life outside of this bedroom or even this mansion to be honest. I will never be able to be free again.

The door slung open pushing my thoughts suddenly away.
I look up to see the doctor and Blake. I just glared at them not having the energy to speak, I close my eyes and go to my happy place- the club.

"Arabella the doctor said you're now four months pregnant, as I said to you before I will let you out of this hell hole of a room that you call it, to stroll around the mansion as you please."

He sighed.

He didn't look happy about his decision, but he can't keep me locked up in here forever.

Before I could respond the cuffs where being unlocked. I was so sad and happy at the same time. Before I even had chance to say or speak, I ran out of that door like a mad lady straight to the front door and bolted. I'm shocked my legs didn't give out underneath me considering they've not moved in months. Surely the weight would of been a shock to my feet. Hey ho...

I screamed in happy tears "IM FREE" I smiled as listening to the birds sing their beautiful tunes and the trees swaying like they're dancing.
All of sudden I fell down.  Knew this was going to happen but I didn't listen to myself being completely selfish once again and putting myself before others.
Fuck not this again... my legs felt like jelly, I laid there on my stomach.

"Arabella, do you want to return to that room? Be careful for fuck sake. You're carrying a child. You've already lost one"

he sighed at me.

"I'm sorry husband, I won't do it again. Can you hear the birds?!!! Oh hell baby they're singing such a beautiful song!!! Can you hear it?!"

I laughed and cried, so many emotions.

"I think it's time we went back in and you took a nap. Think that's enough for one day wifey"

he sighed and rolled his eyes at me.

"No no please no Blake. I've been stuck in that room for four whole months! Please I beg. Can't I nap out here in the fresh air please please!!"

I smiled sweetly hoping he would say yes.

"No, you need to stop thinking about yourself it's not just you now. You can nap on the sofa in my office so I can keep an eye on you. I will even open the windows so you can hear the birds."

He slightly smiled.

I nodded, I could agree to that.