I'm afraid of myself.
Sometimes it can go really wild and beyond human morality. I can think what people don't usually think. I can go really dark and not feel guilty about that at all.
I'm afraid to open up about myself.
I don't think people will understand what my mind thinks about. I'm afraid people will be scared of me. I'm afraid people will think that I'm weird. I'm afraid people will see me differently.
I'm afraid people around me feel shame because of me.
I'm afraid they will leave me and pretend that they never know me. I'm afraid that I will never be part of them anymore. I'm afraid they will abandon me and I will die alone. Painfully.
But,
I'm also afraid that I'm not getting helped.
I'm afraid I will go crazy and can't think normally. I'm afraid I can't live my routines as usual. I'm afraid I can't enjoy my life anymore. I'm afraid I can't see the colors of the world anymore.
I'm afraid...
Of myself.
I'm afraid...
Please help
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