Angela

Book Four: Everlasting love for you

Back home I remain in a state of desolation. Empty. Hollow. Unsure of why I was outside the room, why I was outside the restaurant. What was that restaurant anyway? What does it hold to my person? I don't remember anything that had transpired before it. I played the video once more and listened to it whilst lying in bed.

"I'm eating! Calm down!"

"Look at you, girl! You dig into that damn meal! Wooo!"

The voices of me and a woman who I didn't recall, who I didn't remember. Who was she? Why did I have a recording of her when I don't even know her? I sit in my chair, unsure of what to do next. I would have to go to school and talk to someone about this... talk to... talk... to... Who can I talk to? Do I know anyone?

"Yes. You know someone," a woman's voice called out to me from the door. I fell down the bed, startled by her presence. Standing up, I looked at her and immediately recognized her. The clothes that she wore, the same ones that she wore that day... It was my sister but why was she here? Isn't she--

"You know many people now. So many who want to be your friend," she continued.

"Do you think I'll figure out who they are?" I inquired, about those people that she mentioned. I have no memory of them, of how we met, of anything.

She shrugged. "We'll see."

I wasn't sure about that. If I could barely recognize the person who I had recorded on my phone, then how could I remember folks who wants to be my friend? How can I figure out who they are when there is so much that I can't remember? Do I remember the school I go to? Do I still go to school? What are my classes? How am I in school? How should I act around them?

"Time to go to sleep, Adoi," she said, with a smile on her face. Adoi? It was the nickname she and my mother had given me when I was 4 years old. Amid my overthinking, I slept on the bed and dreamt about her and how we used to hang out together, she was everything to me. My big sister. I ponder over the many questions that may accumulate in my mind, but all in all, I slept. Never worrying about what may come forth for if I have my big sister with me, that is enough for me.

Entering school once more, I felt the presence of many faces who I faintly remember. I still remember the layout of the school and how things work here. That is about it of what I remember here, any activities and groups that I was a part of before: I don't remember. Continuing school is normal when it came to certain periods where we can freely explore the school. Taking that opportunity to see if I can find those faces who I faintly recognized.

On my way to the library, a girl wearing a lengthy gray skirt with a bowtie near her lower back and a black sweatshirt walked past me. Her bright red hair shone with the lights above us. She glared at me for a moment and nodded before carrying on her way. Who was that? Though she was faintly familiar, I was about to walk up to her and ask if I knew her. But I ended up not doing such a thing.

Entering the library, I noticed a girl with long blonde hair who was wearing a black sweater. She had this spiny choker with her hood over her head, the girl was reading a book with a golden ribbon hanging off to the side of the book. She held it with these black wooly gloves that had a skull symbol on them. I faintly recognized her, so have I met her before? The girl peered up and we made eye contact for a moment

"Ah!" she exclaimed whilst lifting the book to cover her face.

I quickly took a seat at her table and adjusted myself. I knew that I needed to pick up a conversation with her for I had stared at her unintentionally. Though I wasn't sure how to start the conversation with my memory of her being foggy.