My Heart of Desires | 3

90.) Too Much Toxicity.

Is it due to my stress, my inabilities to love someone else, someone other than you? 

Trust me, you've stressed me to the point where I'm physically and emotionally distraught.

Not being able to concentrate on almost anything, I've passed out due to nausea. 

Are you happy,
happy you've RUINED my mental health
and destroyed my ability to BREATHE?

Indeed, I think it's time I move on;
there's nothing for me here, only a man
who takes out his own insecurities
on a woman. 

I deserve so much better, someone who I don't have to ask permission to do certain things,
someone who knows exactly what to do,
someone who doesn't stress me to the point where I shut people out and put a guard
upon my own heart
because I'm too afraid
to begin anew.

~ Taylor-Anne

December 9, 2020.

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