CROSSROADS

CHAPTER 29 - Pretty face

IRIS

06 April, 2020

12:45 Euphoria

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I can't resist Logan. It makes the whole situation more confusing. My plans keep getting messier and messier. Am I giving all three of them false hope? Am I leading them on if I honestly admit that I'm attracted to all of them? Is this still part of my original plan? I feel like I'm the bad guy in this story if this is ever written into a book.

I promised myself I wont get too attached if I'm going to start implementing my master plan, to take revenge. But as I get closer to my main goal, the more I get tender and caring towards these guys. I've already slept with the two of them and I can't resist it, I love sex. That's my weakness.

If Chris didn't open my eyes to the wilder and darker side of sex, I wouldn't be craving for it when I see an opportunity to get a taste of it. And it feels so good especially with Logan. You really need to be wary of people who are the serious and silent type. I never thought he would be way more experienced and loves sex like I do.

Chris was my first boyfriend and we've been together for years. It would be a given that he was my first. It started vanilla but we were both the adventurous type. We have tried a lot of stuff to see what we both like and what works for us.

And when I say we tried a lot of stuff, I mean it. Both of us have a lot of kinks. And let's just say that we even get as far as trying bdsm. And we both love it. We explored too much that we got to know that we enjoy both being either the dom or the sub. We are both a switch. We alternately change roles for what we feel to do.

There's an unforgettable thing that we have agreed to try and have done that's always lingering in my mind. I guess there's an unanswered question of mine that I want to know.

We had a threesome. We both have our own conditions before trying it out. Mine is I don't want it to be with another woman, his is I need to be blindfolded for he doesn't want me to know who the third person is. We both agreed.

We didn't do it once nor twice, but a lot of times, with the same person. The other one also has a condition where I need to be tied up so I can't touch him. Chris added a ball gag for me for he doesn't want both of us to kiss. I never knew who he was. Chris never told me.

What's bothering me everytime I think about it is how affectionate the guy is with me. It's like I can feel that he's making love to me not like it's just casual sex. That irritated Chris. I think he got the impression that I'm enjoying it more with the other guy than him, especially when it got so good that I squirted, that was the first time.

We didn't do it again after that. I didn't know what happened with him and the guy but Chris changed after that incident. He became irritated easily. And his attitude towards me became more aggressive. He became violent.

It came to the point where he hit me during an argument. I could have dodged it easily or hit him back but I don't know. I love him so much that I haven't even thought about hurting him, physically.

Nate was furious when he saw the bruise that he even threatened to kill Chris. Their friendship was over because of that. Nate tried convincing me to break up with him but I didn't listen.

I even got mad at him for wanting me to break up with his ex bestfriend. Not until Chris accidentally pushed me down the stairs during an argument that led me to be hospitalised for a week. That's when Nate found out from the doctors the many bruises that I have been hiding from him.

"Iris? Iris are you okay?" I hear a tapping sound against the window.

I look up and saw Zed standing outside the car. I might have dozed off behind the wheel while I was contemplating with a lot of stuff that has been bugging me for a long time. I turned off the engine.