Loves Me, Loves Me Not

Chapter 3

"Tori? I'm sorry, I shouldn't have brought it up." Addison said, walking cautiously behind me. I was sitting outside, on the footpath in front of her house. She put her hand on my shoulder, trying to comfort me.

"Please don't touch me there." I said through my teeth, trying not to snap again. She quickly removed her hand.

"Tori, I know you'll hate me for saying this but-"

"Why would you say it then?!" I angrily replied.

"You should go to the police about what happened! It's not right, and look at you, you're scared of my touching your shoulder!" Addy complained, sitting next to me.

I moved over slightly, putting more distance between us. "I can't go to the police now." Tears were rushing down my cheeks.

"Why not?" Cassie asked softly, causing both Addison and I to jump.

"Don't do that!" Addison complained.

"I can't go because it's almost been a year now..." My voice broke as I started sobbing, I was falling apart.

"But he is still harassing you!" Cassie exclaimed.

"But if I go now, I can get in trouble for not telling them about Essa last time. Couldn't I?" I had my face in my hands, balling my eyes out.

"Tori... I don't know, but you need help, I'm sorry but you do, and getting what you know off your chest is only going to help you." Addy persuaded.

"If he comes for me again, I'll call the police and tell them everything." I concluded.

*

"Tori.. Tori.. Tori? Why aren't you answering me?" A voice echoed.

I took in my surroundings, I was in a dark room, there was light in a corner and I slowly started walking towards it.

"Tori! You betrayed me!" The voice shouted in my face.

I looked around, no-one was anywhere, I was alone.

"You left me Tori! Everyone lost me because of you!" Vanessa's was running towards me, I screamed.

I quickly sat up on my bed, breathing heavily. Sweat was running down my face.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry!" I repeated over and over, exhausted.

I run to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet. I washed my mouth with water, then brushed my teeth, finishing with mouth wash. I splashed water over myself.

I stumbled back into my bedroom, and looked at my pink alarm clock, according to it, the time was 3:26am. I sighed and lay back in bed. "I'm sorry," I repeated continuously, until I drifted into another uncomfortable sleep.

*

"Tori! Wake up, honey!" My mother shook me lightly.

I blinked, once, twice, a third time and I was awake. I stretched out my arms and legs as I sat up.

"You have to get ready for school sweetheart." My mum smiled opening my curtains, I groaned. "I heard you get up last night, Tori. Again. Are you pregnant?"

"No mum! I'm not pregnant," I knew I wasn't, but I was once, no-one knew besides Cassie and Addison, although they have no idea who the father is, that is something I kept secret, I had a miscarriage around a 11 months ago, I was about 1 and half months pregnant when I lost it. Any mention of a baby, breaks my heart.

"Well then honey, what is wrong?" My mum looked at me, eyes full of concern for her now, only daughter.

"I had a nightmare..." I wanted to leave it at that.