sleepyhead || peter ballard x fem reader

this is what a failure looks like.

a/n: quite a sad one, sorry i'm feeling sad today 😭

i keep thinking of the night before, it's not fair. i need to get him back somehow. i don't know how though. we're in the rainbow room, me and the rest of the children, being ready for our lesson. papa looks at with hatred in his eyes and he coughs to get everyone's attention, although he already had it.
"before today's lesson starts, i would like to show you what a failure looks like." papa says. soon after that, he grabs my hand and pulls me up and to the front. "023, you have disappointed this whole lab. you've been doing so bad on your tests lately and you need to get punished." he looks around for his orderly he wants to punish me. my heart beats so fast as he holds his gaze at peter. "peter, you shall do the punishing today." peter looks at me with tears and fear in his eyes. he can't do this, but then ill get punished and so will he! he has to do this, it doesn't matter if he loves me or not. he reluctantly walks over to papa and grabs my arms and puts them in restraints.
"i'm so fucking sorry, y/n." peter whispers quietly into my ear. tears fill my eyes. i can't do this. as he takes me away, i start hyperventilating and crying. peter looked at me, obviously sensing that i couldn't breathe. "i'm not doing this." he yells.
"NO, PETER!" i manage to shout through my crying. he looks at me in confusion.
"what do you mean, y/n?" peter says, his voice breaking towards the end of his sentence. he was about to cry.
"peter.." i couldn't say anything else. he carries on taking me to the punishment room as i cry, kick and scream. all while not being able to breathe. this day, could only get worse. peter looks at me, tears rolling down his cheeks. some other orderlies were there looking. they knew how sensitive peter was. they had to help him. but they didn't. peter couldn't do it and ran out of the room with tears streaming down his face. the other orderlies called papa in to tell him about what had happened. papa rushed in, burst the doors open. the orderlies told him what had happened. papa looked at me and ordered the new orderly, alec, to do it. he reaches for the shock collar and puts it on me.
"this is what you deserve," he whispers. "for having sex with an orderly. yes, papa knows. so don't try and pull another move like that again, 023. you are so dumb." he turns the shock collar on and watches me with malice as i struggle to breathe. out the corner of my eye, i see peter, in restraints, being forced to watch me. tears streamed down my face as i fell to the floor and passed out.