These kids will be the death of me

Chapter 20 (hi and goodbye)

"God it's impossible to find the source of this freaking bleeding!"

"More units of AB please!"

"All hands on deck!"

"We're losing them!"

"That's it Lucy! I'm taking her out!" Arizona yelled in the middle of surgeons.

"She's already losing enough blood and you still want to do a c-section?"

"Right now she's got a better shot."

"If we lose her you're the one that has to tell Shepred!"

"I can live with that! Scalpel please!"

Arizona did what she was allowed while Lucy tried to stop the bleeding.

"Oh my God her cervix is ripped in half! No wonder she's bleeding out!"

"Thanks a lot Lucy; I just delivered a baby girl and you took my spotlight."

"Welcome to the world, now can I have somebody to help me sew her two incisions?"

"See you within an hour if everything goes down well!"

Meredith 's side

"We're losing her again! Paddles! Clear!"

A steady heartbeat re filled the room.

"Thank God! Welcome back; just don't go all funny on us again! Let's finish closing up and then take her to the ICU."

It took them 55 minutes since Robbins left the OR until they took her to the ICU. She was weak.

But she was alive.

She was ripped in two;

And Lived.

Survived.

She saw death more than once, she saw it's dungeons off cancer patients waiting to leave their families and see death's ballroom. She got to see death's morgue freezer bed and crashed in her coffin a couple times. Back then she didn't really worried she stayed there until death took her seven headed dog out and left the door unlocked.

Now she didn't felt that way.

She wasn't a guest, she was a prisoner.

She wished she could have been with her babies until the end of their journey. Right now she'd be grateful just by following them to the end of elementary school . She said goodbye to them in her own way, but how about them? She could leave this world without regrets but why would her little angels have to live with that huge weight on their shoulders until their death? To be miserable? So they wouldn't have anyone to catch them if they fell? To lose their way and then have to figure it out again by themselves?

And these were only worries for the twins let alone the little girl she hasn't had the chance to meet.

All of this runs her head has she recovers.

Ellen's side

"Come on honey breathe for me won't you? I don't care if it's just a tiny little cry! I know you are out here sooner than what you'd like and by this time you should be lying in the womb and do nothing like Bruno Mars, but if you don't breathe there's nothing I can do besides a ventilator."

Still no signs of breathing.

"Let's put her in a ventilator. She's out 14 weeks earlier maybe she'll start breathing in awhile." A nurse nodded. "If this was a drama "If I die Young" would be the background song. Baby girl that's not a good thing."

Name: hadn't been filled yet

Time of birth: 00:06

Birthday: 11/11/2012

Weight: 1 pound 6 ounces

Height: 13 inches

Gender: Female

Mother: Meredith Grey

Father: Derek Shepred

This was all they had about that tiny little life. Less than an hour old ( I guess that if this was another musical episode they'd have to change the lyrics of isn't she lovely) and already a fighter.

Just because you fight it doesn't mean you'll have to win.

Welcome to the limbo.

The place where the souls will bet anything.

Play you cards well;

Who knows for how long you can still do that.

Play in the swings;

Stay the hell away from the water fall;

That's for angels my dear,

You still have a lot to make clear.

If they only cared about that,

Those narrow minded brats,

Who cares if they are million years?

They still borrow money from their dads!

Don't go! Stay!

For your parents sake,

Its 18 years living with them,

Give it or take...

The waiting room.

Are they dead? If they are I can't use the farm excuse with them.

"Meredith is stable she's at the ICU though. You can see her whenever you want." Lucy said.

"Oh thank God!" the weight of the world was lifted of Derek's shoulders.

"On the other hand the baby is truly weak. I doubt she can make trough the night. She's on a ventilator; we can't leave her there too long or she'll go blind. And... we spotted a mass in her bowels. It's probably benign but still her bowels aren't working and she's having trouble digesting. If you want to meet her do it now." Robbins said without looking away from her shoes.

"Okay. Take me to Meredith's room first."

You all already know where this next part is why bother writing it?

"Girls, mommy is doing fine for now. But she just came back from surgery so she'll be in a little bit of pain. Don't talk to loud or she'll easily get mad at you, and please behave!"

They all entered the room at the same time.

"Mommy? Can you hear me?" Gracie took her mother's hand.

"I... I ...I'm back honey. Call daddy!" she said weakly.

"I'm right here."He sat by her bedside.

"What happened to Ellen?"

"We have another baby girl. They said to me this one is blonde like you. But they don't think she'll make it." He started to cry.

"Her name... have you named her?"

"No I haven't."

"Our daughter's name... is not Ellen Joy... it's Ellen Elliot."