A TOAST FOR TEARS

  drop.
       drop.
            drop.

with a wandering mind,
i let the water fall onto
my head like rain.

with a shattered soul,
i let the tears fall onto
my face, in vain.

       drop.
drop.  
drop.        

the water drops from above;
multiple buckets at once,
my once warm body shivers,
how was it still not used
to the cold?

i open my eyes wide,
i am here, in this vast pool
of my own tears that carry
my monsters, my anxiety,
my nightmares.

the water freely flows in my lungs,
it's as if it was a river that
carried life for the people.
inside, it washes over me and
creates tidal waves i can't
quite escape; it's okay,
i won't cry. i am steadfast.
i open my eyes; i am trying,
but i can't.

why?

— ❝WAKE UP!❞