Helpless

Chapter 3: Big News

"Do you need help with that, sweetheart?" I swiveled around to see Conner standing in the doorway of the kitchen. Currently I was doing the dishes from the dinner we ate just a little while ago.

"No I'm ok. Um... you can spend time with the kids if you want to. Before you go to work," I mumbled, keeping my head down and my hands busy scrubbing plates. I don't want to make him mad by telling him no but I also don't want to do something wrong with him standing right next to me. My hands are already shaking and he's barely said anything.

Conner's eyes flashed dangerously before he turned me around and pushed me up against the counter. "What's the matter Ella? Scared? Nervous?" he questioned. He ran his hand up my arm and placed it on my neck. He squeezed before saying, "I can't imagine why you would ever be scared of me. I love you." He smile a sickly sweet smile.

"Daddy?" a little voice questioned.

Conner kissed me roughly and looked over his shoulder at our youngest son. "Hey squirt. I'm going to work so you be good for your mommy, okay?" He kissed Hudson's head, glanced at me over his shoulder, and walked out.

I blew out a breath I didn't know I was holding before smiling at Hudson and turning my attention back to the dishes. I heard the pitter patter of Hudson's feet leaving the kitchen and then him yelling for his siblings to play a game with him. I can't believe how big they've gotten. I remember when I found out about Macy. That was interesting...

**FLASHBACK**

"That was amazing! Thank you for bringing me there." I smiled up at him. "How did you know I liked The Nutcracker?"

"You told me about how you used to dance, and I know that The Nutcracker is like the one dance that all ballerinas know of," he blushed. "At least I think so."

Aww he's blushing! I giggle and glance up at him through my lashes. "Well you're right. About me and knowing of it. You are just too sweet."

All of a sudden he turns towards me and looks very serious. He stalks towards me before lowering his lips to mine. I feel my back hit the wall and wrap my arms around his neck. All of a sudden my back is hitting something soft. His bed? I look around me and notice his room. His lips travel down my face to my neck.

He stops and looks at me. All I can do is nod my head and then his lips are on mine again.

***

I awake to something light touching my face. Like a feather. My eyes flutter open to see Conner's dark brown eyes and his sexy dimples smiling at me.

"Morning, beautiful," he says sweetly. He gives me an agonizingly slow kiss on the lips before turning and giving me a glass of water and some aspirin. "How are you feeling?"

I take the pills and gulp the water down like I've been stranded in the desert for days. "I'm great. A little sore but it was worth it." I smile at him then get up to grab my clothes. "How 'bout we go and get some breakfast before my first class?" I question while pulling on my clothes.

He looks me up and down before answering. "That sounds amazing El," he says.

***

This cannot be happening. Looking at the stick I read something that stops my heart completely. Pregnant. Oh god.

A million questions run through my head. Did we use protection? How am I going to tell my parents that their 18 year old daughter got pregnant? How am I going to tell Conner? ...will Conner stay? Adoption? Keep it? Abortion is not an option.

Okay Ella, breathe. First things first. I have to tell Conner.

I pull out my phone and text him and ask him to meet me at the park. A few minutes later he texts back that he'll be there.