Life

Chapter 4 - The Life You Lived

1 year had past, in the human world. My mom, and my little brother, were a year older. Time passed a lot faster in the human world, than it did in the afterlife. My mom was sitting in the living room, staring at a memorial that was in the house. In the picture, I had a smile on my face, and I was a good bit younger.

My mom had rings around her eyes, and she seems to have lost a bit of weight. While she stared at the picture of me, she looks as though she had a deep emptiness within her heart. "I should've stopped him from walking out the house..maybe if I didn't pressure him into telling me what was going on with him, he would've never..never.." My mom starts to choke over her words, while her eyes start to water, heavily.

Quickly, her husband, and my little brother rush beside her, while she covers her face with her hands and sobs into them. "It is not your fault..for a year you've been blaming yourself for this, but you have to remember that he chose to walk out the house..And it's so unfortunate that he did. But we're gonna have to move on.." Her husband spoke to her, as she removed her hands away from her face, and looked into the photo of me.

My little brother on the other hand, looked saddened as well, as he watched the state of my mother, along with the picture of me.

Meanwhile, in the memory world that I was in. Realizing what I had to do, along with the pressure that was mixed with it, made me become uneasy and frustrated. "Why can't you just take me to the afterworld right now?! Why do I have to come to terms with my life or whatever bullshit that is? How come I don't have to find meaning in it, but I do have to come to terms with it? This seems like a load of shit!" I turned around and faced Heasa, as I yelled all of those words, angrily.

Heasa stared at me for a second, before moving her hands around, in a majestic motion. She shut her eyes, and looked extremely focus. This made me look at her with confusion. "What are you doing?" I ask her, though she continues to make these hand gestures.

Afterwards, a door opened. The door was a very plain wooden door, that stood on top of the grass next to me. "As a guardian angel, I can open doors for you..this door, would be the door to the afterworld, or reincarnation. Depending on what I choose for you. Now, since I'm breaking the rules, I would choose the door to the afterlife. But, if you don't come to terms with your life, this door will be a one way ticket into you becoming a lost soul. It wouldn't matter which door I manifested. So you see? I can open a afterworld door, or a reincarnation door. But if your heart isn't in the right place, you'll become a lost soul. You'll drift off into the human world, where you'll be alone for eternity. The only reason I will open the afterworld door for you, despite if you find meaning in your life or not, is because you're doing the gods a huge favor. Otherwise, they'd be mad at me. The stakes are very high here. Unfortunately, I can't force you to come to terms with the life that you lived, which makes it hard being a guardian angel at times. When someone becomes a lost soul, the guardian angel that watched over them, would be assigned to a new person. Some guardian angels continue to end up with lost souls, over and over again. So coming to terms with your life is the most important thing. Okay Tsuki?" Heasa, my guardian angel explained to me, while I occasionally glanced at the door that was next to me. All of what she said made sense, but it was also a lot to process. If I walk through that door, I'll become a lost so. Well, that's if I haven't come to terms with my life yet. But I'm sure I know whether or not I did or didn't..

"Can you tell when I come to terms with my life, just like if I found it meaninful?" I ask my guardian angel, and she shakes her head in response. "I can only sense if you found your life meaningful, if you answer if you thought it was or not. And I'll open the door for that, despite your answer. Since I'll be able to tell what's in your soul from that answer. Though I don't ask if you came to terms with your life, because there's no way for me to know if you did or not. Which is why you mustn't lie to yourself about it. I want to open a door for you that won't lead to you becoming a lost soul, but I'd only be able to do that if you're truthful. Because people can believe they lived a meaninful life, without coming to terms with the life that they lived. Understanding that they died, and realizing that it's over. So even if you find it meaningful, if you don't come to terms with it, you'll become a lost soul. I'm explaining this a lot, because I want you to understand how serious this is.." Heasa explains to me once more. I take in everything that she says, and understands it. Coming to terms with the life I lived is the only important thing here. Since she's going to take me to the afterworld anyways.