Reasons I Can't Say (On Hold)

Chapter 2: The Beginning

I'm sorry If there are wrong spellings and grammars. Just don't mind them:))) Feel free to criticize my work.

Time ticked annoyingly slow after Jason, and I left History class. Every second felt like minutes;  it tortured me so much. I could feel the excruciating pain my chest has, whenever he isn't around. It worried me, that maybe I am interested with him. He seems so unrealistic and too good to be true. I know I sound cliché, but I just can't help it.

I went to my third class. Calculus. It was weird not to feel excited and happy since Calculus is my favorite subject. I entered the room and sat in my favorite seat. I searched around the room, to see any signs that Jason has the same class as I do.  Mr. Hawkins entered the room, and the students went quiet. I stared at the clock and wrote 'Jason' on the borders of my notebook, pretending to solve the equation. I grew a little impatient and sighed quietly. After one long hour of Calculus, the bell rang. I huriedly stood up while everyone was just about to close their notebooks.

"Ms. Drew, a little in a hurry are we?" Mr. Hawkins asked suspiciously.

I didn't really know what to answer. I couldn't just answer him 'Oh Mr. Hawkins, my amazing Calculus teacher, I just met a boy today, and I think I'm in love! I can't not want to see him. It tortures my heart!' No. That would just be so lame.

"I left my umm my my-" Darn it. I didn't have a reason, and I was bad at lying.

"My locker closed! I mean open! I totally need to go there, you know, to check on things." I lied.

I immediately rushed out the room not waitng for Mr. Hawkins to comment.  Everyone was spread out in the hallway. I saw my friends. I needed to talk to them.

"Guys, I need your help." I said worriedly

"What help?" Alex asked curiously

"Boy Problems?" Anya asked

"Boy problems? Pshht No way I mean Pssshtt me? Boy problems?" I lied to them, planning not to tell them about it.

"Oh I know it's about a boy Alli. Your mouth says it's not, but your eyes say it is."

Lying about boy problems to Anya. Oh jeez.

"Okay It is. But I don't know. Boys are jerks. All of them right?"

"I knew it!" Anya said like she just knew the answer to a very hard question.

We walked to the cafeteria and got our food.

"It's the guy you saw earlier right?" Arianna asked

"You're psychic" I said amazed

"No. I'm no Edward Cullen or Alice Cullen. Judging by  your expression, I am more than right."

"I don't want to like him." I said coldly

"Why not?" Alex asked

"I don't want to be in a Josh Blair situation again. I don't want to feel like an idiot again." I said almost tearing

"Awe Alli. Do you wan me to make him like me so it wouldn't be as hard as you'll think?" Anya said. Clearly, most of you would think that she is the frenemy I'll-get-everything-you-have friend. She isn't, what she's saying is really to help me. A shot of pain shoot across my whole body. I didn't like it.

"It's okay Anya, I could handle this." I said

"Okay But if you-"

"No wait. Yes I doo need you to flirt with him. Two weeks Anya, can you do that?" I asked her. This was the only way to stop liking him. "Can you start later? Whenever you see him?"

"Of course Alli." She said, like it was nothing to her.

"Guys, can you do one itsy bitsy tiny little thing for me?" I asked with my pleading baby voice and puppy dog eyes.

"Well I already am helping her so she's asking you two." Anya said crossing her hands and looking away.

"What is it?" Alex and Arianna asked in unison.

"Can you do a little research on him? Oh, he's Jason Martin by the way. Check his background. The girls he dated, broken the heart and made love with." I said the last part with disgust.

"What's it in for us?" Alex squinted at me and eyes me suspiciously

"You're my bestfriends and I know you can't stand my puppy dog eyes." I said grinning at them

"Fine."

"Really? Thanks guys! You are the bestest best friends in the whole wide world!"

We went out of the cafeteria. I spotted the same hazel eys I saw earlier. The hazel eyes that I was about to hate. He was walking our way, and I couldn't help but feel happy, gigly, anxious and uneasy.

"Anya, now is your chance!" I whispered to her

We stopped at our lockers and he stopped by. He was looking and smiling at me, like a five year old kid who just saw Disneyland.

"Hey." Anya said smiling and twirling a lock of her hair.

Jason looked down at her confused "Oh, hey there." He looked over to me "Hi Alli! How are you?"

"Hi. I'm fine." I fumbled to get the words out correctly

"You're new here right?" Anya asked him

"Yes I am. I was kinda wondering if you'd like to show me around?" He was buying it.

"Sure thing. How about we start now?" Anya said. Her eyes were smoldering, I swear. She wrapped her arms around his and walked off.

"Yeah she's good." I said still in a daze

We had a free period with Mrs. Van den Dungen. I was walking in the hallway. I didn't know where I was heading, I didn't really have a direction. I let my feet carry me to where it wanted to go and soon enough I saw Anya and Jason. Jason was leaning towards her, they were laughing, obviously flirting with each other. Anya's back was pressed in the locker. They were making out. I didn't like what I saw. I froze from where I was standing, another streak of pain shoot across my whole body. Every cell, every fiber, and every vein of my body was frozen - in shock and horror.