I gasped.Wala sa sariling tinakpan ko ang bibig gamit ang aking kamay. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ba papangalanan ang nararamdaman ko. It feels like a sin to know about it.
Now, I knew it. Sebastian keeps blaming Ryle for not picking the girl's call.
Pero hindi man lang ba nila inisip na maaaring may rason si Ryle kaya hindi niya nakita ang tawag ng babae? Now, I'm curious again.
That night, I slept with a heavy heart and so many questions stuck up in my mind.
We spent our two remaining days swimming and touring around. Hindi ko nga lang masyadong nakakasama si Reigna dahil palagi siyang sumama kay Sebastian. Mang-aagaw!
They were happily swimming in the beach while Ryle just sits at the lounge. Kahit minsan ay hindi ko siya nakitang nakihalubilo man lang.
I walked towards him and sat on the lounge near him. He noticed my presence but he just kep silent. There was a beer of can in his hand. Ang aga-aga, umiinom?
"Hindi ka lalangoy?" I asked.
Nanatili ang tingin niya sa mga taong naglalangoy.
"Not in the mood," he said without glancing at me.
Nanahimik na lang ako at nagpahid ng lotion sa kamay ko. They were wearing swimsuit but here I am, wearing a dress. Hindi ko lang talaga bet mag swimsuit. Naiilang ako.
We stayed silent. Na para bang sapat na para sa amin ang katahimikan. It didn't feel awkard. The silence was comfortable.
Na hindi ko namalayang nakatulog na pala ako.
I just woke up when I heard my name from a familiar voice.
Unang bumungad sa akin ang gwapong mukha ni Ryle. My eyes widened when I noticed na gabi na! Hindi man lang ako hinanap ni Reigna, busy kakalandi!
I noticed a jacket on my leg. I assumed it was from Ryle so I took it off and gave it back to me.
"S-salamat..."
Tumayo ako at nag-inat. I smiled. Ang tahimik ng paligid. Tanging naririnig ko ay ang hampas ng alon at mga tinig ng mga ibon.
I glanced at Ryle and he was still standing there.
I gasped when I realized something. Does that mean he watched me sleep for many hours?! Baka tulo laway pa ako!
He chuckled at my reaction and covered my shoulder with his jacket.
"Let's go, ihahatid na kita," he said, a bit amused.
Sabay kaming naglalakad patungo sa room namin. We were silent. Naglalakbay ang isip ko sa kung saan-saan.
I bit my lip and decided to broke the silence.
"Why didn't you pick up her call?"
He stopped that's why I stopped to. My heart was hammering crazily. I was so nervous by his reaction.
I know I stepped on the line too much! Masyado na akong nangingialam. But I was damn curious!
He looked at me coldly. I think he got my question.
"I know it's not your fault. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ka sinisisi ni Sebastian. You had a valid reason for not answering the phone right?" I asked, hopeful.
I expected him to nod and defend himself but he smirked.
His smirk sent shivers down my spine. Parang ibang tao ang nakikita ko ngayon.
"I didn't answer her calls on purpose," he said coldly.
"Huh? What do you-"
"I saw her calls," he cut me off. "But I didn't answer it."
I froze.
Lumapit ako sa kaniya. "But there might be a reason, right?"
I felt pathetic. Why do i keep defending him. Why do I refuse to accept his mistake?
I knew. I knew that he has a reason. I knew that he blamed himself too.
He cried! I saw him crying miserably when I visited my father's tomb.
"Bakit ayaw mong tanggapin,Reese?" he asked. "Do you think I'm a good person?"
I shook my head repeatedly. "I saw you."
"What?"
"Nakita kita. You were crying miserably! You were kneeling in front of her tombstone!" I exclaimed.
His smirk faded.
"And so?," he said, unbothered.
His eyes speak so many emotion.
Regret. Longing. Anger.
"Leave," he said. His hands was shaking a bit.
"It's okay, Ryle," I took a step forward until we're inches apart. "You can tell me. I will listen..."
"Hindi ka ba nakakaintindi?"
I sighed. Wala naman akogn karapatang pilitin siya. I took a step forward. I was about to turn around when I saw him.
A tear fell from his eye. I gasped when he sat on the ground. Good thing there were no other students here.
I sat on the ground too and pulled him for a hug.
"I.." his voice cracked. "I keep blaming myself. Hinding hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko. I-If only I a-answered her calls.."
Hinaplos ko ang likod niya. His head fell on my shoulder.
"I-if only I have not been blinded by anger," he cried harder. His sobs strangled my heart. "I-if only I have forgiven her..."
"It's okay. It's okay," I keep caressing his back.
"Reese.." I heard his soft cries. "S-she wants to break up with me-"
I gasped.
"S-she cheated that's why I never answered her calls. G-galit ako, Reese," he ranted. "G-galit na galit ako sa kaniya, kasi bakit niya naman ako iiwan??" tanong niya. "Kaya hindi ko sinagot ang tawag niya. A-and when I found out what happened to her, I keep blaming myself. S-sana sinagot ko ang tawag niya. I-if only I have not been blinded by anger," he cried harder.
Hindi ko namalayang umiiyak na pala ako.
"It's okay. Your reasons are valid. We are humans too, Ryle. It is normal to be angry, it is normal to make indecisive desicions. Do not blame yourself. Your feelings are valid. Your reasons are valid.."
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