Love Is Sweeter The Second Time Around [Completed]

The break up

"I have had it! We are over!" Hurt. Betrayed and broken. That is my current emotion right now.

"Babe please! Listen to me!! I never lied to you! Heck I never even cheated!!! Why won't you believe me?" Richard, My boyfriend for 7 years tried to defend himself..

"Really Richard? Never?! Not even once?! That's Full of BULLSHIT!!" Anger consumed me! So angry that he can easily betray me and fuck other vaginas.

"YES!! Never! Why are you pinning this on me? Or maybe YOU are going behind my back! Excusing yourself that you will visit Hailey but goes to a man's place and suck his dick-"

Slap

I slapped him. HARD. "How dare you!" I was now crying. I can take our daily banter but being accused of such action felt like my heart is being stabbed multiple times.

He must have noticed that I am crying and now guilt is plastered on his face.

"Babe, I didn't-" but I cut him off.

"You know I would never go behind your back! You know I have always been faithful! I dropped my normal life just to follow you here in L.A and now you are saying all this shit and accusing me?! You know what! I have had enough.."

We regularly fight but never once have I ever mentioned breaking up with him.

"I have had enough Richard. You have beaten and bruised my heart a thousand times and I can't just pretend that all is well." This has to stop. I slowly took a step back but he grabbed both my arms.

"Babe... Don't do this! Please.. We can't! I love you and you love me! Don't do this to us.." I used to see love in his eyes every time he looks at me. But now? There is, but not enough for me to endure another heartache.

"I know about your flings Richard. I saw you. 3 FUCKING times enjoying DRY HUMPING different girls. And I- I can't take it! I blame you for ruining this relationship but I blamed myself even more for staying this long to take the blow. I have had enough. I love you. I still do. I love you so damn much that I stayed this long. I loved you so much that I endured it all. And since I do, I am accepting the fact that you are happy doing all this shebang. You keep doing it Over and over again. Don't say you love me cause you don't-" he stopped me from blabbing by kissing me. The kiss was sweet. The kind that weakens your knees.

But, not anymore.

I pushed him back that caused him to stumble back down and hit the floor. I looked at his hurtful eyes. It hurts to say goodbye to your first love. To the person whom you thought you'd grow old with and have children with.

I gave him a sad smile and ran outside. Out of his apartment and went inside the car that is waiting for me.

"Babe.. You know this is for the better right?!" Hailey. My bestfriend here in L.A since I transferred, held my hand while forcing her tears back.

"I know and I- I am strong enough now to finally leave him." I cried while trying hard just to talk.

"Good." She nodded then dash of the driveway. Heading to Hailey's home town. A place I am foreign too. But I know, will soon be my new home.

Home.

I used to have one. But everything went tumbling down. Dragging my hopes and dreams for a brigher future.

And also,

Dragging my heart along my downfall.