A/n sorry there was no post last week, I was forced to go to a camp and they have a strict no technology rule .
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Mentions of suicide and depression
My parents always tell me to be quiet, that I should shut my mouth, so that's what I'm doing. On Monday March 1st I decided to stop talking at school. At home I will gradually grow quieter and quieter. My friends and teachers think that either my throat hurts or that I lost my voice, they couldn't be more wrong. I'm tired of talking, I don't have the energy to talk anymore. To be honest it's hard, I feel like I'm trapped in my own body with no way to get out. I can't let out my voice because I am scared of what I don't know. I hope to let my friends know why I am not talking but that time is not now, now I am just watching their reactions to my silence. It's funny how most of them haven't noticed, I guess they are happy that I shut up. They just ignore me now, knowing that I take a minute to respond. They just don't bother anymore; it's only been 2 days and they are already tired of me! I'm not sure what to think anymore. I just can't do it anymore....
