I talked about a bad habit that I have last time... So here's one more:
I make myself look stupid so that others laugh.
It's easy...
You could also come away with some stuff because you're the "adorable" dork and you're just lost sometimes.
Which in my case is sometimes true... My thoughts are shattered and I know that. At the same time I fucking hate being called stupid even in a fun way.
Bc I believed it. And Iam trying so desperately to not belive it. Iam sensitive to it. But I don't think my friends get it. Sometimes I say: No Iam not stupid just for them to agree and then call me stupid another time.
I know they don't mean it.
It's something Iam sure of.
I know iam chaotic and that sometimes my head's above a cloud. That my thought are scattered all over the place... But I really try to get it together and everytime someone comments on it I feel like my whole work doesn't really... work.
I hate it. At the sametime it's who Iam. It's why a lot of people like me... But I just don't like the role Iam putting myself into.
I know it's probably not even my role but more like a small part of it...
Still I cant stop being upset everytime someone brings it up the slightest.
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100 days a thought...
ПоэзияLiterally me just thinking every day... In every chapter their will be one thought... Maybe some sentences or maybe just a word. It will be happy but also sad. Good and Bad times. Be my guest. Wanting: Sometimes sentences describing self-harm or bad...
