After months went by since the Dark roads, I still remember the darkness, all the nightmares I've been having and the betrayal of Varric's brother. But the most painful of all is when the Templars took Bethany away from us when we came back, Mother cried for days on end and all I wanted to do was to slashed every Templar and rescued my dear Bethany but that was a dream and couldn't be a reality.
Lately I have been really busy with different quests from Templars to my inner circle and the people of Kirkwall from time to time that I haven't really spend time with my companions lately or anyone for that matter.So one day I decided to catch up with everyone and of course most have some issuses that needed my help which I'm not complaining but having a drink one minute then fighting a group of strange cultists wasn't the kind of catching up I had in mind. But I met up with everyone except for Fenris.
I figure to take a nice bath and put on some comfortable clothing since I'm only walking to Fenris Mansion in Hightown instead of going to Dark Town for once but I still had a hidden blade just in case something wants to get lucky to get a taste. Fenris's mansion is huge but messy since he never cleaned up really after trying to find Darius in this place. I didn't have to knock or anything I wouldn't think anyone would dare to come in here anyway. I made my way up the stairs and towards "his" room. I saw him staring into the fire while sitting down,drinking one of Darius's favorite wines.
"How long have you been staring into this fire,drinking?" I laughed a little.
"I'm just having the time of my so called life. I never knew wine would taste this good."
"Well wine is good and I see that you've been taking a liking to it so I heard from Varric."
"Our little storyteller been telling stories of a drunken elf with silver hair and lyrium marks that can rip through people's hearts, how interesting."
I giggled "You got to admit the little adorable dwarf can spill an interesting tale about a handsome elf plus the added destruction he could do is so sexy." I gave him a seductive look afterwards.
"Well someone is happy lately" He smirked
I went silent, remembering what happened at the Deep Roads and my smile went away. He saw this and came over to me, grab my chin for me to look at him in the eyes.
"I know the Dark Roads have been troubling you, I seen in your eyes and how you talk with others but it been a few months since the journey and I'm worried about you" he brushed my hair from my face. He caress my face to soothe me from the pain of it all.
I started to tear up a bit, I didn't want him to see me in this horrible mess I'm in. I'm a strong woman with a strong mind but this damn elf..
"Fenris I just.....I don't know I've been having nightmares and can't go to sleep sometimes and when the fire goes out..." Instead of saying anything, Fenris grab me and held me while I cried. He kept telling I'm safe and stroking my hair till I'd calm down. I pulled away and wipe my eyes. God Why am I a mess especially infront of him. Pull yourself together Era.
"Fenris.."I looked at him
"Era?"he look into me
"Thank you for being here with me, I just needed someone to help me but was to afraid to tell anyone. I just..." I stroked my hair back and wiped the rest of my tears off my face.
"Era I'm always here for you, and if you needed anything just let me..." I kissed him out of nowhere, I don't know why but it felt right.I didn't care if he rejected it, I just want to let him now that I have feelings for him but couldn't put it in words.
But he didn't, he pulled me closer and the kiss got deeper. I wanted to tell him why I did but he probably figured it out by now. All the times I looked at him for long periods and always stand right to him anywhere plus all the flirty things I would say to him. This was perfect, this was what I needed for long while.
Fenris pulled and smiled "I didn't know you had strong feelings for me and seemed like you have for long time" he slowly message my back which felt amazing.
"I did when we first met, I'm sorry if I was straight forward" I rub his ears, he always like that it was something that soothe him especially during the Dark Roads.
"I was beginning to think you had your interest in Anders because he's wants to fight off the templars especially because of your sister". He placed his forehead on top of mine kiss my nose.
I giggled "Fenris, I always had the hots for you but didn't had the guts to say it too, I was afraid you didn't like me or we were just friends" I felt a little sad.
"Then explain that one time with the Qunari on the coast line and he attack you and you fell on the ground, I use all my power to tear that Qunari apart with my bare hands because I was angered that he touch you!" he said with anger
"True" and I kissed him "I love it when your protective over me" I nuzzled my face to his neck. I kiss his neck and he flinched
"Alright Era, stop it" he said
i kissed him again and again. "Why, are you ticklish Fenris, is the big bad elf ticklish" I said laughly. Oh gave me the most death defying look ever.
"I'm not ticklish Hawke and keep playing games like this and you won't get your surpise!!" he said pulling my hair. I let out an "accidently" moan and he blush a whole lot which made me smile.
"I'm sorry Fenris I couldn't help myself" Yea I could but I didn't want to "and what surpise Fenris??" I said walking up the steps to my bedroom with Fenris right behind me.
"i just wanted to take you out somewhere and eventually tell you my feelings for you" Fenris said smiling. I notice that he did an overview of my backside which he was memorized until I caught him staring and he blushed.
"Well I have to take a bath first, help yourself to anything really" I went into my bathroom (yes a bathroom even it wasn't in the game) and took off my clothes. I walked over to the heater for the huge tube (which was a fortune but i still had money left over) and waited a couple mins before I slipped in and thought about all the places Fenris was going to take me and the thought of him alone made me happy and relaxed.
Fenris and I.
