Sad Book of Poetry

Forgiveness

Is it too late to beg for your forgiveness?

I promised you,

And yet I broke it.

I know I shouldn't have,

I couldn't help myself,

You don't understand what its like to be me.

You say I can be strong,

But I can't.

I'm not strong.

I'm not you.

I wish I was never born,

Sorry I was a disappointment,

Sorry I caused you pain,

But I'm really not worth giving another thought.

Just let me die here,

Leave me, You don't want to see this

Because there's nothing you can do to save me from myself.

This horror,

It's me,

Sorry you had such a monster,

Sorry I wasn't who I should have been.

I should have been more,

I should have been you,

But I wasn't.

Punish me,

I know I deserve it,

I deserve the pain.

Or else leave me, to cause myself my own kind of misery.