Catching The Hawk

Your New BFF

~Your POV~
Laying there next to the door you feel something being placed over you. Looking up you see Bucky placing a light blanket over you. He hands you a small pillow, knowing that you won't leave that door for anything right now. Your hand still under the door touching Clints. You could hear light snores coming from the other side of the door. He must have been exhausted, but refused to leave your side. How much you didn't understand why after everything he was still fighting for you. There is a sudden vibration through the floor. Over and over it vibrates. Must be his phone. There is a sudden stirring in the other side of the door.

*Hmmm....what Steve? You do know what time it is right?* You could hear the frustration in his voice.

*What? Now?* His voice more and more agitated.

*Fine....I'll be down in a minute.*

The conversation stops and it gets quiet again. Your heart starts to race in your chest. He was leaving and you knew it would be a while before you could be near him again. You're sure it will be good to focus on you and what you need to do to break this hold.

*Babe? You awake?* His soothing voice comes through the door.

*Mmmm...yeah.* You try to keep yourself centered and your thoughts clear.

*I've got to go. Steve has us heading out in 20 minutes. I know I dont wanna leave you, but this has to be taken care of.* There was shuffling on the other side of the door. Then your feel a soft kiss on the top of your hand.

*You know where I'll be.* Was all you could muster.

*Stay focused. I'll be back as soon as I can. I promise.* He shifts again and you can hear him getting to his feet. *I love you more than life honey.* With that you hear his footsteps going down the hall.

Getting up off the floor you walk over to Bucky's room. You knock on the open door. Waiting to see if he is awake.

*You ok?* Comes softly through the dark room.

*I don't wanna be alone right now.* You whisper to him.

*Then come here.* You could hear him rustling in the bed.

Walking to the right side of the bed you climb up into it and lay there flat on your back staring into the dark nothingness. Your head and your heart were at war and you could not take anymore. You feel the cold metal on your arm and it sends goosebumps down it.

*I'm here if you need to talk.* He rolls over to face you.

*I don't know what to do Bucky. I want to be close to him, but my heart wants to jump out of my chest when he is near me.* You roll over to face him. You could see half his face due to the light coming from your room.

*You are better than you were yesterday. That is all you need to focus on. Fighting the thoughts. Its hard, trust me I know. You will get through this.* He takes his right hand and caresses the side of your face. *I'm going to be with you through it all.*

You can feel your eyes getting heavy. Blinking hard trying to keep yourself awake but failing. You yawn and squeeze your eyes shut. You feel an arm around you pulling you close. The cold metal arm sends a shiver down your body.

*Sorry, I always forget how cold this thing gets.* Sitting up he grabs the blanket at the foot of the bed and pulls it over you.

*Thanks Buck, I'm so glad I'm not going through this alone.* You snuggle up to him and sigh.

*Any time.* He whispers to you. *Get some rest. You need it.*

You feel him rubbing your back slowly and the gentle touch and the quiet makes you relax. That was all you needed to focus on letting yourself get some well deserved sleep.