Love At First Heard

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I don't know what am I gonna feel about days na nakakausap ko siya. I've always have excuses just to talk to him.

I'm just thankful na ako ang naging leader niya for this quarter. I'm too close... am I?

"Hi! Good evening, sorry to disturb youuuu. I just want to ask if you know how to do this?"

Excuses...

I always feel nervous whenever I talk to him in chat. I take a lot of time to practice what I'm going to tell him just to make sure I don't make any mistakes. And after ko i-check yung sasabihin ko sa kanya ay ipapakita ko pa ito sa mga kaibigan ko.

That's why they know how nervous I am everytime I'm having conversations with him.

"Ahmm, let me try. Hindi pa kasi ako nakapag gawa ng ganyan, but I can learn." He replied. "By the way, saan mo gagamitin?"

"For our project, we're gonna use it to know the percentage of this." Referring to our debate. "But if you can't do it... okay lang-"

Napahinto ako sa pagta-type sa cellphone and the next thing happened, I just found myself falling in love with him... deeper than before.

"Ahmm! Okay gets ko na, bigyan mo ko hanggang bukas ng tanghali... aaralin ko."

Acedhelo...

Kahit na tungkol sa subject, sa debate natin yung laging pinag uusapan natin nagagawa ko pa din kiligin.

"Rem! Sinasabi ko sayo, umamin ka na!" Hanna said through pm. "What if he likes you? Paano if the feeling is mutual?"

"What if hindi?" I asked.

"What if Oo?" She immediately replied. "You know, baka nahihiya lang siya but he keeps waiting for you."

"Paano kung naghihintay nga siya, pero hindi ako yung hinihintay niya?"

"Tenk Pusitib!"

My friends keep telling me to confess. However, I don't have enough courage to confess. We're still strangers after all.

"Niceee!" Happily saw your response to my research. "Simple but doable." And that's his first compliment for what I've been doing.

Few hours later, he asked me kung okay na ba yung ginawa ko na survey for participants and I agreed.

"Ahmm Okay! If there's any works that I can do pakisabihan nalang ako."

It's not just about your attractive voice but your kindness and being independent... kaya siguro kita nagustuhan.

"Uyy sorry hindi ko pala naisend sayo bago ako matulog."

He said sorry but I noticed his first expression.

From Ahmm to Uyy...

He told me that he's sorry because he forgot to send his another work research. But I told him that he should take a rest instead, dahil sa mga ka group namin siya ang may pinaka maraming nagawa. Still, sinend niya pa din yung gawa niya sa akin. Unfortunately, someone from our group send me a research before he noticed my messages in group chat.

"Sige lang Marem," My name sounds different when it comes from him, kahit na sa chat lang naman kami nag uusap. "Tulungan pa din kita, tapos kung ano yung matapos natin ayun na lang yung pagpilian natin."

Sa simpleng salita... nahulog si ateng marupok ...

"Hala sorry, nasayang effort mo!" I replied, and he said "Okay lang, maliit na bagay lang hahahaha."

"Gaano kaliit?" Pagbibiro ko.

And I was shocked to see his reply. He take a picture of his left-hand. Pinapakita kung anong ibig niyang sabihin sa 'maliit na bagay lang' sa paraan ng hintuturo at hinlalaki niya.

"Kulit ka ah!"

Hindi pa din ako makapaniwala sa nangyari kaya bahagya akong nahinto at hindi alam ang sasabihin.

At the end, I tried to tell a joke. "Syempre, kung hindi ako makulit... edi, hindi ako makulit." And for the first time, nag react siya ng haha sa message ko.

Kilig na naman si ate mo...

"Sigee na back to work para matapos na tayo."

"Okay po sir!" I replied, at muli siyang nag react ng emojie na nakatawa.

After what happened, hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko na sabihin ito sa mga kaibigan ko. And just like me, kinilig den sila, dahil alam na alam nila kung gaano ko ka gusto ang nangyari.

Another day,

"Hello po! Nagbabalik hahaha!" I excitedly type. "Are you busy?" I worriedly asked, nagtataka kung bakit hindi siya nakapasok sa klase kanina.

"Hala, hindi ako nakasama sa meet kanina, hindi ako umabot." He replied and asked me what happened.

"Omkii gets ko na!"

The way you said 'Omkii' makes my heart skip a beat, pero agad din akong nakabawi. "Oum! Nuggets!"

"Salamat sa pag inform."

Nang maramdaman ko na matatapos na ang usap ay muli akong nakaisip ng biro para muling pagaanin ang atmosphere.

"Andito po talaga ako para hingin yung sagot niyo sa math." Pagbibiro ko. "Chos hahaha! I just want to ask what happened to our survey."

"Mag sesend na sana ako, but wait!" I laughed, then I decided to reply "Ng sagot ba iyan?"

"Anong week mo na ba?"

Agad kong naitikom ang bibig ko at kinikilig na sabihing nagbibiro lamang ako, pero mas natigilan ako ng muli siyang magreply.

"Madali akong maniwala, huwag kang ganyann hahahaha!"

Should I confess?

And here I am... Thinking about a lot of things, a lot of what if's that I know I'm not capable to do, because I'm too weak as a teenager who's just a stranger from him.

Just what if's..

He told me that he also send the link of our survey to the other school. Nakuha ko din na syempo iyun para tanungin siya kung saan siya nag aaral dati at dahilan bakit nasa school namin siya ngayon.

"Yup, late for enrollment." He said. "Individual mo ba kukunin yung screenshot miss?"

I paused... iniba niya bigla yung usap. Maybe he's not comfortable about that topic or just maybe he's not that comfortable around me. But why miss?

"Miss tuloy, huwag mo pansinin namali lang ako ng pindot."

But I feel, you're not...
Feeling ko sinadya mo kahit hindi, dahil minuto ang lumipas at hindi segundo bago mo sabihin iyan.

But again, delulus na naman...

But he's not me. I really don't know who he is, yung feelings niya pa kaya? Maybe he's right, he didn't intend to send that. 

"Yung kabuuan po sir!" I replied, then he send me a picture of our survey individually. "Thank youu po!"

You're different from the other. I admit, I fell in love with your voice... pero mas lalo ata akong nahuhulog knowing that you're a good man with a kind personality.

I'm too close... am I?