Love Beyond Emotions!

Holding on...

I felt my entire body freezing. I expected that answer but I wasn't ready for it. I didn't know how to respond.

"I know it might be hard for you to accept but I always liked you.." He said.

"Don't say anything...I'm sorry.." I started walking away. I took a deep breath as I walked into my office.

"Appu...I would like to back out from the project. Do you wanna take over?"

"Wait. What's wrong? This means a lot to you Kriti. You dreamed of this during the entire internship." Appu asked. I didn't have an answer to that. It was hard for me to face him again. I wanted to hide from him forever.

"Kriti You have a visitor. " A staff called out. I went to the main deck only to see Martin waiting in the lobby. "Excuse me, sir? How can I help you?" I started talking to him exactly like how I would treat a client.

"Please don't do that to me. It's okay if you don't want to date me but don't treat me like a stranger."

"Listen." I sat down on the couch. "I'm seriously not ready for anything serious. Nonetheless, I'm not ready to start seeing someone new. I still haven't moved on even though it's been years since I heard from him. You deserve someone who cares for you and loves you more than anything else and I'm not that person."

"Kriti I'm not here to hear your speech. I know everything about you and John. I've been seeing you since I was in college. I've waited for this moment forever. I wanted to say about how I felt for you every single time I saw you but I couldn't. I understand if you don't need anything serious now but please give me a chance." He said. I felt bad for him But even if I try I'm going to end up hurting him. I didn't know what to say. My mind was blank. Apparently, there is no reason not to date him. I've been waiting for someone and I'm not sure if he remembers me. Moreover, I don't even know if he's seeing someone else already.

"Fine I'll give you a chance but I can promise you ill never love you the way you do." Being rude was the only possibility of getting out of this situation. If he starts hating me It's easier. I know I'm being mean but being mean was better than giving hope.

"I promise you we'll have a good time together. It's fine even if you don't love me but give me a chance to love you at least for a moment." I'm such a fool to turn down someone like him. I stared at my monitor sinking in my own thoughts. That's it I couldn't focus on work. I grabbed my stuff and stood up to leave.

"Where are you going? You have a meeting in an hour." Appu grabbed my hand. "I don't feel good. I'm sorry but can you please fill in for me?" I asked her without even waiting for a reply I ran to the cafe.

"So you finally agreed to go on a date with him?" Christy asked. "Stop yelling you're gonna scare the customers away!"

"Thank god, You came back to your senses. By the way don't you have work today?"

"I left the office I couldn't concentrate!" I said sipping my coffee."Wow..It's impossible. Workaholics never get tired of work. Finally, you are acting like a human!"

"Stop Mocking me. I've already had enough!" I sighed. "Come on Kriti It's great that you finally agreed to move on. Just cheer up. Martin is a really great guy. He has always been one since college. Just think about it, Girls used to go crazy for him and he fell for you. Isn't that great?"

"I'm not moving on! I just felt bad for him so I decided to give him a chance. You're right he was popular, very popular indeed but I never loved him." I said defending myself.

"You had a crush on him. That is more than enough dude. You're gonna be fine. You are in safe hands." She said. "Why are you supporting him so much? You never said these about John. You hated him."

"Martin loves you Kriti and I can see it! And it hurts to see you like this. Crying over someone every single day. You are just existing in this world. At least try living in it for once."

After all, what she said was right. I never enjoyed anything. I've been dead inside for a very long time. It's just that it's so hard when you lose someone you wanted to spend all your lives with. Sometimes we don't want to heal because the pain is the only link to what we have lost. I entered my apartment. I felt this silence that I've never felt. Yes, I was losing the will to live. I know it's stupid to die for a boy and everyone would be mad at me if I did but I was really getting tired of my life. I was exhausted and regretted every single moment lived. I was tired of myself...