Diery of the messed up mind

entry 9

dear diary

ok so some of my weeks haven't go so good and you know why its cause of my anger problems.

I have that's why ever since I could rembered I've had problems controlling my anger and that's got to change because I don't want to be known for the girl who gets so easily anger.

I rember my grandma telling me that when my uncle was little that one day some kids where being really mean to him and he just snapped next thing you know my uncle blacked out and when he woke up all his tormenters were on the ground. I've had big problems with it like one day I was at softball classes and this girl who wasn't so nice to me was calling me names and I was course got very very pissed off so I thought in my head and threw my teeth I said your lucky I don't throw this softball at your head. and other times i feel like I'm  not myself and I feel like a monster. I would try anything in the world to control it. heck i would try counting or breathing too if it helps. i just need help controlling it because........ I don't want to be so angry all the time

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