I just wish

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Empty, sad, lost, un-understandable
Yeah, that's how I feel...
I just wish I could understand what's happening inside my brain,
the feelings and emotions that seem to drown me
I just wish I had a vision and boom, suddenly I understand everything.
I just wish I could explain it, to myself and others
But I can only try
and I can only fail.
I never seem to say it all,
to grasp the essence of it.
It just seems that I constantly forget something essential
It just seems people don't understand
It just seems I can't explain.

And I'm scared, I'm scared to talk because I don't want people to minimize what I feel like they always do because they don't understand, they don't understand how powerful these feelings are.
They don't understand that they control me
I just wish they could stop doing that
I just wish small little words didn't change my whole mood
I just wish these words didn't remain graved in my brain
I just wish these feelings had less power over me
I just wish,
I just wish
Can you stop wishing for impossible things?
Can you stop wishing?
Or even that is too hard for you?

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