Enhypen imagines <3

JAKE

It's crazy how one can make you feel all the colors at once.

He has been doing this to me since i first met him , we were just kids unaware of the world. Yet, i was aware that whenever i look at him , i blossom, i'm happy.

he's unaware that he makes people smile just by seeing him, he doesn't know that my smiles are because of him.

When

When can i stop hurting myself?

Countless rejects, how can i still stand seeing him completely hurting me? I would skip classes just to see him play, i would always try to give him water after his long game, i was always there, for him.

my friends are so done with me, always nagging me with the "stop liking him, it's so draining"

it took me weeks to process, but i was at my point wherein i'm already tired. Already exhausted from the what ifs, the constant pain, the rejects, i was at that moment where i figured out, i don't want to stay like this forever.

"Just be my last dance at my birthday, that's all i'm asking for, .. please."

he stared at me, squinting his eyes a bit as if thinking

"And why would i do that?" he tilted his head while his brow raised at me.

i inhaled, "After this no more Ray, no more me. I'm never gonna talk to you again, i'll stay away.. this dance is gonna be the last time."

he scoffed and walked away, he left me speechless

And as expected, he never came.

well.. there's a small part of me that wished that he would've come but expectations hurt right.

i just stood there. On that very last dance, hoping he'd walk infront of me. Haha very funny of me to assume.

Even though he didn't came, i still did what i had to do. I never bothered him again. I took that as my sign to stop liking him,

"girly, suprising you aren't skipping class today?" i smiled a little, and because of that i heard a multiple gasp. "am i seeing this right?" i shrugged

"Makes sense, that birthday of yours was the most biggest yet. And he still stood you up, every last dance is the most special. I'm sorry Ray, he should'nt have done that." i smiled despite the burning feeling on my chest. It was suppose to be special.

and now everyone talks about it. Saying how much they pity me, how much desperate i am, that i expect too much to put him as my last dance.

I don't even want his sorry, i just can't bare seeing him anymore. I was embarassed. I pity myself, so much.

i drowned myself with any activities i can so i could not see him. Suddenly these past few days i can see him everywhere, and it is ruining my mind!

i got up my desk and headed out to find Rox, i need to inform him about the changed schedules. I have to since the professor assigned me to,

"Rox? Rox! Schedules have changed, you can practice next class since BioChem switched at 9" i look at him, my eyes making a big circle

"Oh. Sorry, thought it was Rox." i turned my back to walk again, "Jake! Come, coach's calling you" i ignored it and continued to find Rox.

weeks have already passed, and i got used to it.

not really.

"I'll pay for hers." A hand slide his card to the counter, and handed me my food. "Here. Eat well" he left and got me confused, "i can pay though." I whispered

and another, "Thirsty? Here i bought you water missy." i look at the bottle in his hand, "No thanks."

"Its pretty hot in here, you sure?" he nudged the bottle onto my shoulder while smiling.

I walked away, thinking of buying my own.

"Ray! Wait up." i felt his presence beside me,

"Yes?"

"I'll walk with you" he offered his hand to help me with my bag, "Look, i don't like what you're doing. I can walk on my own." i turned my head away

"I'm sorry. I really am. I really wanted to say sorry but i can't find the timing to do so. It was my fault for ruining your special day." he held my shoulders and turned it so i can look at him,

"Its already done. It's okay, i'm okay."

"Then why are you still ignoring me?" my shoulders dropped, "You can't even stand being in the same place as me, why is that?"

"We are not even friends to begin with. And you don't even see me as one, so why do you care?"

he can't even answer it. "Exactly. Goodbye Jake."

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hey! not the best, but eh i'm still finding my writing style. This chapter i feel like is not fully done, but i have to stop since i really just wanted to update again after a looooooong time.