Billionaire's Revenge | COMPLETED ✓

ARNAV'S POV-II

ARNAV

"I got to know all this when I visited your house after you let Anaya go. I found this in the number of mails you had and after reading it, I tried my best to recover the CCTV footage. I went to Anaya's father and told him that I know everything. At first he was reluctant but he handed me the footage because he was scared that my one word in public might harm his reputation that his daughter was drunk and driving. I should've told you the truth at that moment only but then I realized that you feel something for Anaya. For you, I asked her to come back telling her all the lies because I wanted you to be happy but I had no idea that you're nothing but a fucked-up monster. It was all my fault. I should have told you. Fuck, I should've told her.”
He handed me the letter.

I looked at him in confusion and took the letter from him. I quickly opened it and the second I realised from whom it was, my body stiffened.

Disha.

Arnav,

If you're reading this letter then it means I'm no more. I know you must be heartbroken but trust me, it'll get better with time. You'll feel better with time.

I don't know from where to start. It's been three years since we're in relationship but I feel nothing at all. When I first met you, I found you intriguing. Even though you were nothing like any other normal person, you intrigued me. Maybe because you were different. But when we started dating, I realized that you're not someone who would love me. I know you always told me that you love me, but be honest to yourself, was it really love or just because you were lonely, you became attached to me? You see Arnav, I am a simple girl, I had always dreamt of having my other half who would love me to the moon and back but with you, I felt suffocated. You were always good to me, you made sure that my life's full of luxury but I honestly didn't need any of that.

You told me that you love me but, in your eyes, I saw nothing. You were always busy with your work. You never realized that what I really wanted. And I never got courage to leave you because I pity you. You had no family or anyone to lean on, I thought that if I also leave you, you'd be broken but now I wish I should've left you before I messed up everything. At least then I would've never thought of taking my life. You see, last year I met someone. He was my junior in college and I met him at our college reunion. That night after party, we clicked instantly and talked whole night, sitting near the lake under the sky full of stars. That was the life I wanted not the one I had with you. With you, it was always fancy dinners. I felt happy with him, I didn't feel happy with you. And no, I'm not blaming you for this because it was all of my fault. I should've been honest with you instead of pitying you. You were never the bad person but just not the kind of person I wanted to be with. I started hanging out with him. I thoroughly enjoyed spending time with him. And I don't know when I fell for him.

Arnav, I regretted loving him because I never wanted to cheat on you. But it happened and I couldn't collect enough guts to tell you about it. I wonder if you ever thought that my behavior towards you was changing? I didn't have sex with you for over a year, have you ever thought that what's wrong with me? I barely spoke to you, spent time with you, did you ever think that our relationship's changing? But again, why would you? Because we never had that kind of relationship, do we? In our three years of relationship, we only had sex for about four times and it always made me wonder that do you not find me appealing? We barely talked in a week and I wondered that are you really interested me? I will never forgive myself for cheating on you but I was selfish, I was selfish for my happiness. I tried many times to tell you the truth but seeing you smiling at me like I'm your only hope, I just couldn't. I never wanted to break your heart.

But unfortunately, my happiness was short lived. I got pregnant with his child. I told him that I'm pregnant but you know what he said? He said that what's the proof that it's his child? He said that it's not his child but yours. My love for him faded right there and I regretted my decisions. I had nowhere to go except you. But I couldn't deceive you. I just couldn't tell you that this child is yours when it's not. I don't want to be the villain of your life. Sure, you never loved me truly but you cared for me and for that I just couldn't be the person who destroys your life. So, I'm going to end my life. It's better for me to die than to become someone who hates herself.

There is so much about me that you don't know and I never planned to tell you about it but now that there would be no one in future to talk about me, I'd like to share something with you. Arnav, love isn't something that we all expect it to be, sometimes, just sometimes it's different. For me, love mattered the most. Mostly because of all the fairy tale I grew up watching. Fairy tale of my parents. They were childhood best friends who became lovers. Cliché, right? They were so in love and every time I saw them, I wished a life like them because they both were perfect together. Though they were not rich, I've never seen anyone happier than them. And then you are the richest man of this country but I've never seen you that kind of happy.

When my mother was diagnosed with leukemia, my father started drinking and things started changing between them. Before dying, Mom asked Dad to give another chance to love and wait for it instead of running away from it. I was in college at that time. Coping from her death wasn't easy for me but you know what my dad did? He stopped his drinking habits and tried to live a life of his own. He didn't date anyone for years but he also didn't waste away his life. And one day, I found him smiling at someone who wasn't me or my mom's photograph. She was his colleague. At first, I hated him for that. I thought that how easily he could forget his wife and move on? But later I get to know about that woman. She was a cancer survivor. They both never dated. They were friends who comforted each other. Dad told me that his love for mom would never fade but he would never waste away his life because her memories are enough for him.

I wanted that kind of love, Arnav. I wanted someone to love me like my father loved my mother because after my father died in a car accident, I had no hope to live.

Not until I found you and thought that you'd love me the same.

I hate to admit that a part of me wanted to forget everything and live a life with you full of lies where you'd accept me and both my child but then how can I deceive you? How can I deceive you without despising myself?

I'm tired of everything, Arnav. I want peace. And you could never be my peace.

I miss my parents; I miss my happy memories with them. I just want to go to them.

It hurts too much.

Don't you ever blame yourself for my death because it is not about you, it's about me. It's about a girl who lost her parents and tried to find love so that she can forget her wounds.

Arnav, be happy. Find someone who loves you for who you are and try to love them honestly with your heart.

Goodbye!

"Here's the CCTV footage of that night when Disha died. See how purposely she came in front of Anaya's car. It wasn't Anaya's fault. It was a suicide, not a murder." Ishaan said, showing me the footage. 

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