"It will eventually stop hurting".

Baku 🇦🇿

Another pole to my list today. After the disappointment of Monaco I planned to come back stronger. I will come back stronger. Starting on pole with Pérez and Max behind me.
I get a great start but I see the Redbull coming up beside me and I lock up.
💭shit.
I chase after him for another few laps until I hear
"Yellow flag. Sector 1. It's Carlos. Virtual safety car deployed"
"Is he alright?" I ask frantically.
"He is alright. Alright Box Box Box."
I make my way into the pits. At least this won't be like another Monaco double stack. I see them running to the car and put on the tires but it's slow and the light it didn't green.
"Shit! Come on!"
I eventually get away and in 3rd.
Time to chase down Max.
Lap 19 Max pits and I regain the lead of the race with Pérez in 3rd. Let's go for the win!!
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Only a lap later which is lap 20 something feels strange with the car. Damn it I got a blow out down the straight.
"Problem! Problem! Problem with the car!!!"
"ENGINE FAILURE SHIT"
As I limp my way back to the pits I suddenly realized that Carlos had a DNF before me which means no points at all today.
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After all my interviews, team talks and finding out Redbull got a 1-2 I just walk to my drivers room with my head down. I really taught everything would be ok after Monaco and Barcelona but I guess things are just not going my way this year. I stay in my drivers room just stripping out of my race wear and into some comfortable clothes. My head, my body, my arms, my legs, my heart they all hurt. I feel like such a disappointment. When I know I have everything I start to walk back to my car when I hear
"Charles wait up!!"
God why can't people just leave me alone. I want to just disappear but I don't have the heart to turn away the person who I know that voice belongs to.
"Hey Lewis"
"I'm sorry about your race, do you know what happened?"
"Yep engine failure. Again."
"God the must be tough"
"Congrats on your 4th pace Lewis you deserve it."
"Thanks man." Lewis pauses before he keeps talking.
"You don't look ok Charles do you want to sit down"
That caught Charles off guard. What does he mean he doesn't look ok.
"I'm fine Lewis"
"You don't look fine"
I tilt my head in confusion and suddenly Lewis takes out his phone and takes a picture of me!!
"Hey! What was that for?"
"Look"
He shows me his phone and the picture of me. My heart drops. I have black circles under my eyes and I'm very very pale.
" Are you getting enough sleep and eating ok Charles??"
I am eating but I barely sleep anymore. I don't have time to. I need to focus and get ready for the next races and conferences and strategy's u don't have time to sleep!
"I am Lewis don't worry"
" Ok but come to me if you need someone to talk to ok?"
"Ok"
"Great,we'll I'll see you in Canada Charles"
"See ya Lewis"
He walks off giving me a smile. I turn to my car and drive to my hotel. I get into my room and I just stand there.
💭You know what. I think I'm just going to sleep.💭
I never really let myself sleep when I want. I work to I sleep. But I really can't be bothered to after today's events. I'm praying that Canada will be a bit easier for me. As I get into bed and ready to close me eyes I hear my phone ringing.
Mattia.
Why.
I pick up.
"Mattia is everything ok?"
"Charles I have some news about Canada"
"What is it"
"We have to put in a new power unit but there a problem"
"Ok?"
"You will be facing a penalty"
No please don't tell me.
"You will be starting from the back of the grid".
SHIT. Any chance I had now of winning is gone!!!!!
"Alright thanks Mattia"
"Ok bye Charles"
I hang up the phone.
You have got to be kidding me.

Hey guys sorry for the really late update. My holidays are kinda hectic but I hope you will enjoy this chapter. Byeeeee.