"It will eventually stop hurting".

Imola 🇮🇹

Catch him. I need to catch him.
Lap 53. Currently in 3rd and hunting down the striking Redbull of Sergio Pérez infront of me. I can hear the blurred cheering of  tifosi somewhere and it makes my heart race. I can do it. I know I can. Soon I will be in striking distance of the dashing Redbull. As I approach turns 14 and 15 the Redbull isn't too far ahead. I go a bit too wide on the outside for turn 14 and suddenly I lost it.
"STUPID CHARLES YOU IDIOT" I say to myself. I make my way back to the pits but come out behind Yuki and Seb (Sebastian) and I'm furious. A stupid mistake, god Charles. As I take the chequered flag I ended up in a unforgivable P6. Suddenly I hear Xavier speak on the radio.
"P6 Charles, P6. Max won, Sergio 2nd and Lando 3rd".
Max had won. Again. I don't hate Max I see him as a friend but since I was so close to P2 and P1 I was just furious at myself. A 1-2 for Redbull. I could have stopped that and got great points if I haven't had messed up. God Charles. I go to do my media duties and put a small smile on. I say it was my mistake and I am sorry to the team. After all of these interviews saying it was my fault and sorry I eventually get back to the Ferrari home. I ran into Carlos and felt a wave of guilt. Carlos had his 2nd retirement in 2 races and I was sulking with a P6. I couldn't image what he was feeling.
"Hey man long race huh?" He said.
"Ya long race. How are u feeling mate I'm so sorry about your DNF".
" Disappointed I guess I felt like I could get great points today".
"Same here mate".
"Well I have got to go Charles I'm meeting with Lando to celebrate his podium. Want to come?"
" Thanks but I think I will turn in early tonight".
"Alright bye mate".
"Bye Carlos".
As I turn to leave I feel Carlos grab my wrist.
"Don't overthink it Charles. It was only a mistake and you will do better next time, don't worry".
"Thanks Carlos".
"No bother mate. See ya"
And with that he walked off. Don't overthink?? Overthinking is literally my hobbie.
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When I finally get back to my apartment I took of my shoes and flung them somewhere hoping they wouldn't hit anything, change into comfy clothes, get in bed and rewatched where I went wrong. It's a habit I have. If I do bad or make a mistake I constantly rewatch it so I remember to never do that again.
Right in this moment I am thinking about everything I have done wrong in this race and my previous races. I am a Ferrari driver. Anyone would die to be where I am right now. And guess what? I make a mistake!!
Suddenly I get a message and reach for my phone. As I check the ID its Seb. I always looked up to Seb when I was younger and when we were teammates in Ferrai. Although I felt guilty for taking Kimi's seat he made me feel so welcomed in the team.
I open our chats and read what he sent.
"Hey Charles, I'm sorry about your race. But you had a nice recovery!! I know you wanted to win Charles but be happy you didn't have to retire because of accident. You are very talented and guess what Charles, everyone makes mistakes! I did, a lot!!!!! So please try not to overthink it because I need you to be all guns blazing for Miami!! Get rest Charles,
Seb❤️."
I felt my eyes watering a bit before I blinked them back. Seb always had a way to make me feel better. But now I have 1 thing in mind.
Miami.

Hey guys so that was the first chapter. I hope it wasn't too bad!! Give me your thoughts if u wish. I will try to update as much as possible. I live in Ireland and I'm 15 so I have a lot going on but never enough to stop me from loving formula 1. Carlos and Seb. The teammate and ex-teammate. AGHHHHH. Anyways Bye!!!!!