Who We Were

Kori

I've been attempting to avoid Kai for 5 days now, actually I've been avoiding mostly everyone because I'm ashamed of how I acted. I behaved exactly how Craig would have, and that's really not a good look. I'm not ashamed of kissing Kai though, because that's literally all I've been able to think about. Kai's lips against mine consumed me every thought right now. But I'd be giving in so easily if I told him that, and I don't even know if he feels the same way about it. He's been with a lot of girls, this might just be another one of those things for him, but still he messages me again for the billionth time this week.

Kai: I'm going to show up at your apartment soon if you keep this little avoidance thing up.

Kori: please don't do that.

Kai: Oh, now I've got your attention. Good. We need to talk.

Kori: We don't really have anything to talk about.

I see the message appear read, and the little dots come up, I wait anxiously for his reply but then I hear a knock on my door. My heart jumps a bit, did he actually show up at my place? I get up from the couch and swing the door open, but instead I just feel sick. Craig is standing there with his arms crossed. "I need the rest of my shit." He scoots past me and into the apartment, and sits down on the couch.

Kai: Fine I'm coming over.

Shit; he definitely can't show up here, not now.

Kori: I'm dealing with the devil, talk later.

Kai: Craig's there?

"Texting Johnson?" I almost forget he's here, and I need to get rid of him. "I thought you just needed to get your stuff?" I try to ignore his question, because the last thing I want to do is talk about Kai fucking Johnson's tongue deep in my throat with my ex boyfriend. "What happened to us Kor?" Craig gives me that pleading look he always does when he's attempting to make me feel bad for him. The difference this time is that I see right through it now. "You cheated on me Craig, that's what happened. Now get what you need and leave, I'm serious." He gets up and heads to the bedroom while I sit and wait for him to be done. I can hear him shuffling through stuff and throwing things around, but the thing I notice the most in this exact moment now is that Kai is standing in my doorway, and he doesn't look happy.

"Don't tell me you've been avoiding me cause you decided to get back together with him?" He has a playful smirk on his face, as if he's amused by this. But before I can speak, Craig comes walking down the hall and throws his bag to the ground when he sees that Kai is here. His fists are clenched at his side, and his face is almost shaking, he looks mad. "Don't tell me you want a round 2 Meyers?" Kai clearly can't read the room, or maybe he can and this is his plan. Whatever it is, I don't want to deal with a fight in the middle of my apartment. "If you have everything you can go now." I try to diffuse the situation, and it works because Craig mumbles something under his breath before rushing out the door.

I turn to Kai, who has a victorious smile plastered across his face. "I told you not to come here!" My tone isn't friendly, and he looks taken aback by what I've just said. "And I told you we needed to talk." He crosses his arms and stares at me, once again testing wether I'll break or not. But I don't, I stand there pointing at my door, waiting for him to leave because I'm not ready to hear once again that it was a mistake. He closes the door though, and walks over and sits down on my couch. "Things got a little intense last week." He rubs his neck. Intense, yeah that's one way I'd describe it. Before he can let me down gently once again though, I say "Kissing you was a mistake." And then he's on his feet instantly, striding across the room right towards me. "I don't want it to be weird now, we should probably quit talking." I have no idea why I thought using his own words against him would work, but it didn't. He stands there laughing at me before he pulls me into his chest. Kai Johnson is in my apartment, holding me, and it's not because we're putting on a show for Craig. But when I snap back to my senses, I remember Kai's the first person who hurt me, and I don't think that's fair to ignore.

"What are you trying to do?" I snap, pushing him from me. "I just want to be here for you." He says quietly, and then he pulls me back into him slamming his lips against mine. And my body betrays me, relaxing at his touch. I didn't want to give in this easily, but we already lost four years and I don't want to lose another second with him. But he breaks the kiss and pulls away, looking down at me with both happiness and sadness in his eyes. "I was afraid to say it back then, but I've always liked you." And that's all I need right now, is for him to tell me that he's always felt the same way.  He crashes his lips into mine again, and before I know it he's picking me up in his arms and carrying me to my bed.

"You have no idea how long I've wanted this." His words come out almost as groans, as he starts kissing down my neck, towards my chest, teasing the tops of my breasts. I let out a little moan, and that just makes him more crazy. Craig never made me feel this way in bed. Kai pulls my skirt up, and slides my panties to the side, giving him access to my clit. And once he starts rubbing and putting his fingers in all the right places, I lose control. My body feels like it's been set on fire by Kai and I don't want him to stop. And he doesn't, he keeps working his fingers until I can't keep it in any longer and explode in a loud orgasm. But then he stops and doesn't go any further, and I'm scared that he changed his mind.

"What are you doing?" I barely manage to get the words out between my heavy breathing. He wraps both his arms around me and giggles, and right now it feels like there was no time lost.

"Todays about making it up to you."