The poor girl

Jessica was thinking in her mind I'm going to die I'm going to die that's all
she thought.She knew that she had cancer but know one else did and that's how it should be I guess?
We'll let me start from the beginning,
Jessica woke up one morning and her mum was crying Jess ask if she was ok but her mum said just one word DIE
Jess thought did Grandad die or Grandma she wants sure but she knew it was best just to leave her alone an let her relax.Jess went up to her room but them went back down and ask what was the matter.Jessica mum said oh sweetie you know how we always go for check ups at the doctors well they said....... You have cancer.I pause happened I didn't
want it to because I needed help I wanted to just crawl up in a ball.
Was my life all over ? Will I ever love?
Why can't I just touch my heart pray that this want happen
God bless us all Jess said tears falling down her face her Wes red no longer green and bright her face bright pink not fare white.I have dreamed of this to see how it fells to have cancer it doesn't feel like anything but I my heart I just want to shut it up it thumbing so hard that I can't even breath is this cancer or fear. Jess cried on her mum shoulder HOW WHY NOT ME WHYYYYYYYY. All she could think about now was death she knew she was going to die all of her dreams and thoughts she thought in her mind 'things might come in my way but you always have to push them away.The next morning it was school she was worried she wasn't sure if to tell them or not Jessica mum came in and said Jess I told your teacher so don't worry. Jess walked out and as she was walking were people looking at her thinking she is totally cool.As she walked in every one rushed to there sits covering there mouths with there black Lind jumpers. I thought why are they looking and doing that them I knew.I ask of I could go out side for a Minute or two and she said yes I let me go as I was out side I thought I'm dead already I'm nothing but crap I'm crap crap crap crap.I look like a mess I'm so tried because I was writing my bucket list all night so I just walk In and say,
Ok look I know you guys see me as a person that has cold well I don't and cancer is nothing like that you don't fell sick you just know your dying like I am ok I'm practically dead I'm dead broken.Everyone suddenly removes there jumpers from there mouths and starts working I don't know if it's because I scared them or gave them Some idea of what I fell likeThen my mum calls it's about how many more day till I'm dead i pick it up
Yes mum
You have ..................